im. im glad you liked the song. you have no idea how long ive been searching and searching for a song that'll make you feel the same way i did when you introduced this whole other world of music to me.

there's no guarantee that i. that you liked it as much as you say you did. but im just relieved that that song made it into your playlist.

i mostly sent that song to you because i remember that you felt that you missed being with mika when you haven't even met irl.

i felt,,, you. when i listened to that song. the beat. the guitar. the lyrics. the vocals. it was all so,,, you. i was reading my book when that song came on shuffle (thank god for spotify that's not premium). and at the 30 second mark, i stop turning the page and space out.

bc you came into my mind all of a sudden. i cant explain it very well. but you were on my mind for the entire 4 minutes and 4 seconds of that song. i thought of you and i staying up all night on calls. me making powerpoints and reviewers. you playing guitar and pc.

our calls weren't full of words. but they weren't exactly silent either. you would sing to me. and yeah. you sucked at singing. but i didn't care. it was extremely adorable. you have no idea how warm my face was and how my cheeks hurt from smiling. i was happy. you sang.

and you'd keep on playing the guitar but every now and then, you stop singing. i laugh as quietly as i can. not too loud so that my parents hear. not too quiet that you can't hear it either.

i wonder if you ever actually heard me singing along to the songs you played on guitar.

i wanted you to hear me. i wanted to show that hey. i can sing too. i want to sing for you. for as long as i can. i want to share songs with you for as long as the universe allowed.

no such luck though

i snap out of that trance 3 minutes into the song. i remembered that you posted on your spam account on facebook.. how you feel that you're missing a person, in every way possible, even when you've never actually met them.

that that certain person just feels so familiar. that that certain person just makes you feel so comfortable in your own skin around them that it feels like you've known them before. like you've known them for as long as you can remember.

i know how that feels. i know it better than anyone in the entire universe.

because that's how i felt with you.

and that's exactly what the song is about. and it gets me weak. because it doesn't make me remember me feeling that feeling about you. it makes me remember that you're feeling that way right now with a girl you met online.

and I don't know why. i don't know why i scramble to get back on the spotify app to get the song's title and artist at the last 23 seconds of the song, immediately look it up on youtube and send the link to you.

just like how you've always done with me.

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