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i think i hardly ever mind criticism and even mockery of the things i like, even when i don't agree with them, and in some cases i actually even appreciate them. what rubs me the wrong way and has at times been hurtful is the mockery of my own interest in those things
and i obviously don't mean the internet going "liking [x] is cringe" or "[x] is bad and anyone who likes it is bad" or anything of the sort, i mean. trying to tell a close friend about why something that is personally significant is so important to me, not in the interest of
converting them into liking the thing, but just because i needed to share something of myself with them, and having their only reaction be to interrupt me halfway through and in one way or another let me know they did not care, and later only reference my interest in the context
of making fun of me, however good-naturedly. i love making fun of the things i love. i literally cannot take anything i watch/read/listen to seriously 75% of the time, if i myself can't engage with content that way (except in the cases where the subject matter is too serious for
that), i'm probably not enjoying the thing as much as i could. i love being able to make fun of the things i love with others, either because the thing is terrible and roasting it is half of the experience or just because Joking Is Good, Actually, u know?
i've also not had great times with recommending stuff to others, not because they didn't like things i suggested they try, but because they specifically did not try them because the suggestion came from me (and later on, when the suggestion came from somewhere or someone else,
they gave the thing a chance and loved it). i don't mind that my friends don't like the same things i do, i don't mind that my friends don't like things i recommend, or react to a suggestion by going "yeah this doesn't look like something i would like" or quietly dismiss my
suggestions or interests altogether, i've just had experiences where in lieu of any of those scenarios, it was made more or less clear that it was specifically because i was interested in something that it was not worth checking it out.
i hardly ever recommend things personally, partly because of these experiences and partly because regardless of how much i like a thing, i want to be sure i am basing that recommendation on the other person tastes and not my own, and nowadays i'm not as good at judging those for
a variety of reasons. i'm much more likely to yell about a thing on here and hope that if there is something that catches someone's attention, they will eventually come to it, or to reply when someone asks for opinion about something or for specific recommendations.
in any case, nowadays i mostly don't feel the need to share specific things with others, at least not ones that are personally significant beyond the general engagement with any piece of entertainment, if that makes sense. the exception may be holic, but i also usually Don't want
to subject other people to it so That's where the struggle lies. anywhey. idk what the point of this thread was, just. shit i've been thinking for a while and cannot shut the fuck up about, apparently
