so this got way more attention than i thought it would. i made it bc i was having a rough time & i needed to reflect. seeing so many people relate lets me know i'm not alone, & neither are you all. if this has helped you in reading it as its helped me in making it, then i'm happy
at this point it's a bit difficult to sift through both comments on this post and dms, but i see them and i appreciate them! thanks for the lovely thoughts, lets all keep learning and growing
