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-drags hands down her face-
I& #39;ll shut up after this and go draw, but I& #39;m seeing a lot of absolute statements lately on the nature of art as an expression of trauma - but also that, an expression of trauma isn& #39;t porn. That& #39;s true, absolutely!
But what about when it& #39;s... Not?
I& #39;ll shut up after this and go draw, but I& #39;m seeing a lot of absolute statements lately on the nature of art as an expression of trauma - but also that, an expression of trauma isn& #39;t porn. That& #39;s true, absolutely!
But what about when it& #39;s... Not?
My art - Ila and Idris, my writing, the incest, all of it - is an expression of my grief and longing for what I never had, /because of/ and in the /wake of/ incest trauma that spanned nearly twenty years of my life.
I get off to it. Constantly. I /want/ others to get off to it.
I get off to it. Constantly. I /want/ others to get off to it.
I /want/ people to find Idris desirable (within reason, he is my husbands& #39; avatar), I /want/ Ila to be cute and sexy. I /want/ my romance to drip sexual tension, I /want/ it to be titillating/heartwrenching. I /want/ to bond with people over the grief, the romance, AND the sex!
Just because something goes in that direction doesn& #39;t mean it& #39;s lesser as an expression of pain. It doesn& #39;t have to be painful, or scary, or very surreal to be cathartic. Sex and sexuality are just as deep an emotional facet as anything else that makes us human.
I just get irritated by the General Consensus of a lot of this shit that I& #39;m on the side of - it completely shuts out an entire lived experience in favor of pushing back against fascy puritans, because my experience isn& #39;t as clear cut, isn& #39;t as comfortable to shout from on high.
And this is why I have these conversations on my Curiouscat and Dreamwidth, lmao.
-whispers- often it feels like the call is coming from inside the house and it makes my skin crawl
