what's is my talent? tak kan takde langsung.

kalau orang campak makanan from 10 meters away and i can catch it with my mouth, consider talent ke tu? if yes, bukan ada orang nak praise pun for that talent, ye dok gituw?

im not athletic and bukan sports man or whatsoever. i cant sing and i cant play any music instruments. im not a good student and im not in uniten dean's list. weh apa je aku boleh cerita to the next generation of mine.

tak kan nak guna modal sama je duk cerita pasal zaman-zaman RMC. dulu abah/atok naik kapal layar bla bla bla tembak guna m16 bla bla bla kawad POP duduk bawah panas, kena pacak kepala and all that?

2020 should be a year where I could achieve what i couldn't in 2019 and previous year. Tapi a big FUCK to covid19, this freaking 1months of quarantine totally change my mindset for this year.

after February 18th, aku janji dekat diri nak jadi better and nak achieve something. atleast dapat my very first Half Marathon medal dengan kudrat aku sendiri. But the event cancelled. Aku nak reconstruct balik AbuTech since management agak terabur ,but now? I cant do much

Modal dah gone. Duit sendiri pun dah gone. Nak hustle sekarang do part time job, mana ada kedai bukak, company pun tak nak amik staff dah.

Yes, i dont have any savings. Duit yang ada, itulah dia. Top up top up untuk tolong serba sedikit family. Atleast jadi anak berguna

They did so much for me dari aku sekolah rendah sampai masuk UNITEN. Zaman sekolah rendah, berapa sekolah tah pindah sebab buat perangai, sebab nampak benda-benda pelik dekat SK Sungai Pusu. Buat perangai tak nak pergi sekolah agama. end up, sampai darjah 3 je sekolah agama.

Yuran dah bayar, and all school stuff. Tapi dieorang tak pernah mengeluh. Then went to high school, fam hv a major financial issue sebab arwah kakak sakit. My along angah tolong apa yang patut from financial sbb both of them dh habis study. And what i did that time? nothing

So its my time to give back to them. Duit sendiri dah ada, duit dari buat business pun boleh topup topup sikit, why not tolong dieorang kan when they need some help? Bawa dieorang makan tempat sedap-sedap, where I can pay for them and give me the undescribable feelings

Hm, suka tengok orang lain ada saving and can do something atleast with their money time time macamni. But here am i, duduk dalam bilik, main PUBG,PES,Warzone with all gaming gears yang aku beli sendiri, laptop connected to my phone's hotspot. 4gb everyday.

Ada orang yang lagi susah, betul. But bruh, you're going up. Dont stay at the same level for a long period of time. For me, nak berjaya tengok orang yang kaya and kalau nak bersyukur, tengok orang yang kais pagi makan pagi kais petang makan petang. Aku bersyukur dengan apa aku -

ada tapi aku nak achieve more dalam hidup. Aku tak nak "hm okey lah ni, takpelah bersyukur lah dgn apa yang ada" and you fucking dont do anything.

so going back to the first tweet of this thread, i could say that im panic over things that probably orang nampak remeh, but for me, benda tu besar. yea.

3.30 am thoughts, what do you expect?