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I will be attending the University of South Alabama for medical school this fall. I worked hard in undergrad. So did everyone else who is starting. A lot of times I questioned my choices, studying on Saturdays... When I left the fraternity I was in. Not now. Not anymore.
I will be attending the University of South Alabama for medical school this fall. I worked hard in undergrad. So did everyone else who is starting. A lot of times I questioned my choices, studying on Saturdays... When I left the fraternity I was in. Not now. Not anymore.
2/n
I read a lot about burnout on twitter, in articles, YouTube, and the statistics support the notion that it’s a great issue. Burnout is a buzzword and sometimes I think people exploit it as well as other trendy terms to get more attention to their content. I dunno.
I read a lot about burnout on twitter, in articles, YouTube, and the statistics support the notion that it’s a great issue. Burnout is a buzzword and sometimes I think people exploit it as well as other trendy terms to get more attention to their content. I dunno.
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Anyways, I graduated from Auburn University. I remember clearly during my first class in general chemistry there when my professor asked for a show of hands to see the distribution of majors in the class... engineers, business, health, whoever else may be taking the course.
Anyways, I graduated from Auburn University. I remember clearly during my first class in general chemistry there when my professor asked for a show of hands to see the distribution of majors in the class... engineers, business, health, whoever else may be taking the course.
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This is Gen Chem 1, which means it was a big class. Probably 350 people. And what I remember is I remember about 9/10ths of the room raising their hand saying they were a premedical student. And I was naive and thought. Wow. Auburn must be so proud. Look at all of us.
This is Gen Chem 1, which means it was a big class. Probably 350 people. And what I remember is I remember about 9/10ths of the room raising their hand saying they were a premedical student. And I was naive and thought. Wow. Auburn must be so proud. Look at all of us.
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I thought that auburn is going to graduate so many doctors and they will be so proud of their alumni. How great!! But then I go to the first pre-med club meeting (500 freshman at least) and the director sits in the front and says only 25 of us will even get into med school.
I thought that auburn is going to graduate so many doctors and they will be so proud of their alumni. How great!! But then I go to the first pre-med club meeting (500 freshman at least) and the director sits in the front and says only 25 of us will even get into med school.
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And I’m shocked. I didn’t know why. I look around the room. As if that would tell me who the chosen 25 would be. Soon I start to see some trends. I was in class with lots of private school graduates ( I was public school) who were wicked smart, social, and compassionate.
And I’m shocked. I didn’t know why. I look around the room. As if that would tell me who the chosen 25 would be. Soon I start to see some trends. I was in class with lots of private school graduates ( I was public school) who were wicked smart, social, and compassionate.
7/n
I was a 3x state champ star in football back in my day, and had declined offers at small schools to come to the more prestigious (but affordable) Auburn University for research and quality of facilities and focus of professors. I knew how to work and believed in the process.
I was a 3x state champ star in football back in my day, and had declined offers at small schools to come to the more prestigious (but affordable) Auburn University for research and quality of facilities and focus of professors. I knew how to work and believed in the process.
8/n
I knew how to work and just thought that I would make up for the smarts I knew I lacked with work and the compassion I lacked by throwing myself into experiences. I had imposter syndrome (another buzzword) from day 1. I thought I would work my way through.
I knew how to work and just thought that I would make up for the smarts I knew I lacked with work and the compassion I lacked by throwing myself into experiences. I had imposter syndrome (another buzzword) from day 1. I thought I would work my way through.
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Until I get my first ever college test back. It’s a C in general chem. Wow. I thought well no way I could score that low. Surely most everyone else failed. I check canvas grades. Turns out the average was an 88 and I was BEHIND. Might be conceited that was first time for me.
Until I get my first ever college test back. It’s a C in general chem. Wow. I thought well no way I could score that low. Surely most everyone else failed. I check canvas grades. Turns out the average was an 88 and I was BEHIND. Might be conceited that was first time for me.
10/n
I hear all these “hotshots” as I started calling the wealthy, endowed, students brimming with talent and potential talking about the test in the way out and how they thought it was not that hard and how they didn’t study that long. Etc. I panic.
I hear all these “hotshots” as I started calling the wealthy, endowed, students brimming with talent and potential talking about the test in the way out and how they thought it was not that hard and how they didn’t study that long. Etc. I panic.
11/n
Like many others, I knew I wanted to be a doctor from a young age. The focus of a surgeon? The precision and vision he/she has to use to directly change patient’s life? Pushing themselves to the limits for the sake of their fellow man/woman? I was (and still am) hung ho...
Like many others, I knew I wanted to be a doctor from a young age. The focus of a surgeon? The precision and vision he/she has to use to directly change patient’s life? Pushing themselves to the limits for the sake of their fellow man/woman? I was (and still am) hung ho...
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I felt like that dream was threatened. The sacrifice I made of college football for medicine was threatening to be fruitless. I couldn’t have this. I decided I would find a way to learn chemistry. And I did. I worked my ass off, learned how to learn, etc. and earned an A
I felt like that dream was threatened. The sacrifice I made of college football for medicine was threatening to be fruitless. I couldn’t have this. I decided I would find a way to learn chemistry. And I did. I worked my ass off, learned how to learn, etc. and earned an A
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As a side note, I know people play football and then go to medical school after. There’s actually a former nfl player who goes to South Alabama. I just know myself and know I couldn’t do both. I was good at football and good at school, but not great at either. So I chose.
As a side note, I know people play football and then go to medical school after. There’s actually a former nfl player who goes to South Alabama. I just know myself and know I couldn’t do both. I was good at football and good at school, but not great at either. So I chose.
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Anyway, I studied chemistry like it was as necessary as I need to breathe air. Because I believed I will become a great surgeon and provide hope to a lot of patients. I have the mindset of that if someone else has made it from my circumstances, then I can too. Ben Carson...
Anyway, I studied chemistry like it was as necessary as I need to breathe air. Because I believed I will become a great surgeon and provide hope to a lot of patients. I have the mindset of that if someone else has made it from my circumstances, then I can too. Ben Carson...
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Ben Carson is huge role model for me. Came from pub schools in Detroit. Was behind his classmates. Had nothing more than his faith in Jesus. Determined to become the best version of himself possible. I see myself in that story and I know a lot of you might too.
Ben Carson is huge role model for me. Came from pub schools in Detroit. Was behind his classmates. Had nothing more than his faith in Jesus. Determined to become the best version of himself possible. I see myself in that story and I know a lot of you might too.
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So after this gen chem comeback. I studied hard again in spring semester of freshman year. Then in the summer. Then again. And again and again. Improving each time. Constantly fighting myself and my laziness to really get out there and try to objectively make a change4 good
So after this gen chem comeback. I studied hard again in spring semester of freshman year. Then in the summer. Then again. And again and again. Improving each time. Constantly fighting myself and my laziness to really get out there and try to objectively make a change4 good
17/n
I changed so much over the years I don’t really recognize who I used to be. Yet I feel the same. It’s weird. Anyway, I still have the belief that God cares for us that I had when I decided to go to medicine. And I guess since I made it into school people inclined to listen.
I changed so much over the years I don’t really recognize who I used to be. Yet I feel the same. It’s weird. Anyway, I still have the belief that God cares for us that I had when I decided to go to medicine. And I guess since I made it into school people inclined to listen.
18/n
Moral of the story. I keep my life simple and most of the time I keep things private. I’m introverted and like my quiet life and few but deep relationships. It’s rich. I’m not smart. I’m not the most compassionate. I’m stoic and will prob rarely ever use emotions at work.
Moral of the story. I keep my life simple and most of the time I keep things private. I’m introverted and like my quiet life and few but deep relationships. It’s rich. I’m not smart. I’m not the most compassionate. I’m stoic and will prob rarely ever use emotions at work.
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Those “hotshots” from freshman year? They’re not going to med school with me for some reason and to be quite frank idk why. I know 2 human beings who are even holding one acceptance to medical school for this year. I don’t know if Auburn hit their 25 students this year.
Those “hotshots” from freshman year? They’re not going to med school with me for some reason and to be quite frank idk why. I know 2 human beings who are even holding one acceptance to medical school for this year. I don’t know if Auburn hit their 25 students this year.
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Guys. I don’t have the answers. Nobody really does. A motto I live my life by is I’m going to do my best and let God do the rest. This thread I won’t leave up for long. It’s too disorganized and raw. I have to be careful with what I say publicly as I know my words reflect.
Guys. I don’t have the answers. Nobody really does. A motto I live my life by is I’m going to do my best and let God do the rest. This thread I won’t leave up for long. It’s too disorganized and raw. I have to be careful with what I say publicly as I know my words reflect.
21/n
But it’s like people expect me to have answers for them. I don’t! Just work hard, discipline your mind and heart and never ever give your soul to anyone who is not your Creator! Maybe I will put more effort into crystallizing my thoughts. Don’t act on your emotions always.
But it’s like people expect me to have answers for them. I don’t! Just work hard, discipline your mind and heart and never ever give your soul to anyone who is not your Creator! Maybe I will put more effort into crystallizing my thoughts. Don’t act on your emotions always.
