warning i’m too lazy to use grammar. please be nice!
i don’t ever like to talk about my feelings because i don’t want to put that on anyone. i never want anyone to have to worry about me or my problems/ feelings. 1/idk how many

i LOVE billie more than i could ever express. and i love being in this fandom. this is super hard for me to even type out. i’ve pushed this down for so long but i feel like i owe it to myself to open up. as you all know, being in a fandom and having a fanpage is very hard. 2/idk

. keeping up with content or finding content in dry moments can be very draining and tough. everything i’m about to say isn’t something that just came up. i’ve felt this way for about a year, but it’s gotten worse in the past 5 ish months. 3/idk

i’ve had my instagram fanpage for well over a year. it’s been such a fun journey and i love having a fanpage SO much. no i’ve never been noticed. yes i’m aware. BUT i know that billie loves me and every other fanpage. 4/idk

yes it does hurt to see newer fanpages with lots of notices and lots of followers but i choose not to let it bug me because in the end, we are here for billie and that’s all that matters. 5/idk