What has been the worse part of this whole journey is figuring out who me is again. I am still having a tough time I guess showing everything about me. All the things I like and so on. My curse was and still is is does what I like and say matter you know?

Sometimes I have moments where I have no idea how to express what I like and love about something. Heck I have a tough time even expressing to people what music I like. Which is weird I know but true.

I guess everything about what I like is so personal to me that I find it tough to show it more and more. I call the side effect of my journey is I am so opened up it can get a weensy bit overwhelming in this head of mine.

I had to revamp my life practically over the past few weeks and I am still figuring out everything. It is kind of intense honestly. The brain drain is real on this front.

Heck the hardest part is trying to figure out what makes people want to be around me at all at times. That has been frustrating to sort through. Like I know I am not a bad person but what makes me special enough for people to even care or know me more.

If you ever wanted an idea of the disjointed nature of my mind at times in dealing with my feelings well by golly this thread is it.