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Maybe i've been asking too much of myself in this time,,
I'm acting as if nothing is happening, nothing really changed in my daily life so why should I not be using this extra time in the house to do stuff I need, be productive, start my so long awaited research (more on that+
I'm acting as if nothing is happening, nothing really changed in my daily life so why should I not be using this extra time in the house to do stuff I need, be productive, start my so long awaited research (more on that+
+ to come, hopefully)
but I'm not doing things as healthy as I could? I think I may be in denial about how fucked up everything is and covering that up with tries to be as productive as I can
but I fluctuate, days where I barely leave my room, or my bed as a matter of fact +
but I'm not doing things as healthy as I could? I think I may be in denial about how fucked up everything is and covering that up with tries to be as productive as I can
but I fluctuate, days where I barely leave my room, or my bed as a matter of fact +
back to back with days I will draw for hours and hours non-stop, to then be disatisfied with the results in the next few days,,
I'm taking uni classes, a fast drawing workshop, trying to keep up with the course I signed up last year, and on top of that trying to come up with a +
I'm taking uni classes, a fast drawing workshop, trying to keep up with the course I signed up last year, and on top of that trying to come up with a +
research project until the end of april (the 27th to be exact), and that piles on top of: cooking most of my own meals, cleaning my room, which I've never been great at, taking care of my cat, keeping my parents updated and doing therapy... its a lot
its a lot a lot,, and I feel+
its a lot a lot,, and I feel+
like I'm failing everything, nothing is going as well as it could be and I feel sad and angry that I'm failing at things I proposed to myself.
But that also fluctuates wildly between that and a nonchalance about all of it "hah, its fine, nothing matters life is +
But that also fluctuates wildly between that and a nonchalance about all of it "hah, its fine, nothing matters life is +
+meaningless", only that's just a mask for the "I can't handle letting other people down" part of me...
"this is a quarantine, not a productivity competition" I've read recently in a related comic, and it hit hard,, you dont have to compete with others (that was the message of+
"this is a quarantine, not a productivity competition" I've read recently in a related comic, and it hit hard,, you dont have to compete with others (that was the message of+
+ the comic strip) but you also don't have to compete with yourself, you don't need to be more productive now than you were before just because you have a few extra hours on the day to do stuff, you (I'm mostly talking to and about myself here lol) also need to accept and +
+understand that living during a fricking pandemic is going to have a mental toll on you, it's ok and natural to be that way.
Anyway, I doubt anyone got to this far in this thread I just wanted to put it out here, in between moms sending you videos of stuff you can do to "be+
Anyway, I doubt anyone got to this far in this thread I just wanted to put it out here, in between moms sending you videos of stuff you can do to "be+
+ healthy and keep being productive!" and other relatives sending you dreadful articles about virus spread just,, take your time, breath, cry a little if needed and *do* *not* enter a competition of productivity with other people and with yourself
so,, yeah,,
so,, yeah,,
