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1. one of them
2. @.luvedyoumore
3. i regret a lot of my impulsive decisions/actions
4. Very insecure
5. single & hating it
6. every time i think about how i’d die, save suicidal thoughts, it’s always me sacrificing myself in the place of someone else?? —
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1. one of them
2. @.luvedyoumore
3. i regret a lot of my impulsive decisions/actions
4. Very insecure
5. single & hating it
6. every time i think about how i’d die, save suicidal thoughts, it’s always me sacrificing myself in the place of someone else?? —
— but as far as how i Want to die, i’d have to say content; happy and loved.
7. mozzarella cheese
8. i was on a soccer team in kindergarten... i got kicked off for pushing kids down and stealing the ball. and sometimes i play baseball
9. i try not to but sometimes i do. —
7. mozzarella cheese
8. i was on a soccer team in kindergarten... i got kicked off for pushing kids down and stealing the ball. and sometimes i play baseball
9. i try not to but sometimes i do. —
— i had a big habit of biting them when i was younger.
10. a few weeks ago
11. that’s a complicated question because i’ll like them one second and then try to convince myself that i don’t the next. it’s frustrating and confusing and i despise myself for it
12. i have insomnia —
10. a few weeks ago
11. that’s a complicated question because i’ll like them one second and then try to convince myself that i don’t the next. it’s frustrating and confusing and i despise myself for it
12. i have insomnia —
— so yeah, unfortunately
13. my aunt. i hate her. and i don’t normally hate people, but i hate her.
14. i miss my irl best friends. i love them so much. i can be myself around all of them, no matter what.
15. i have two dogs (nora & roxie), a cat (carl) and a gecko (max) :)
13. my aunt. i hate her. and i don’t normally hate people, but i hate her.
14. i miss my irl best friends. i love them so much. i can be myself around all of them, no matter what.
15. i have two dogs (nora & roxie), a cat (carl) and a gecko (max) :)
16. very frustrated
17. no i haven’t but i know people who have
18. depends on the spider
19. i would, most definitely. i would go back to may of last year and fix a lot of things i said to a lot of people & spend more time with those who cared about me.
20. last time? lmao never
17. no i haven’t but i know people who have
18. depends on the spider
19. i would, most definitely. i would go back to may of last year and fix a lot of things i said to a lot of people & spend more time with those who cared about me.
20. last time? lmao never
21. i was supposed to go outside and walk around today but it’s raining and everywhere is flooded
22. yeah. anywhere from 1-3, i think. sometimes i feel like i’d be content with 1, and then other times i’m just like... nah, 2 or 3.
23. no i don’t but i was supposed to get my —
22. yeah. anywhere from 1-3, i think. sometimes i feel like i’d be content with 1, and then other times i’m just like... nah, 2 or 3.
23. no i don’t but i was supposed to get my —
— ears done weeks ago but ms rona fucked my plans up.
24. english/history/art
25. i miss the friends i had in high school who i took for granted because they really cared about me but i was too caught up in something to understand that senior year would be the last time —
24. english/history/art
25. i miss the friends i had in high school who i took for granted because they really cared about me but i was too caught up in something to understand that senior year would be the last time —
— that i would really see any of them. so yeah i miss people from my past.
26. to be honest... a really good sandwich
27. yes and i feel so bad about it still
28. as far as i know, no
29. unfortunately, i probably have
30. i’m jealous over something stupid and i shouldn’t —
26. to be honest... a really good sandwich
27. yes and i feel so bad about it still
28. as far as i know, no
29. unfortunately, i probably have
30. i’m jealous over something stupid and i shouldn’t —
— be because it isn’t fair but i just want to know what happened and why it had to happen so fast? that fact alone is very irritating, that there isn’t a direct answer. i’m also irritated because i’m irritated. i have a lot of anger issues with a lot of causes. unfortunately.
31. a lot of people love me but i’m just too stubborn and doubtful to believe it
32. blue
33. yeah but they’re not “bad”
34. i hardly remember my dreams because of my insomnia medications
35. i don’t cry in front of anyone it embarrasses me beyond belief
36. i do. and i —
32. blue
33. yeah but they’re not “bad”
34. i hardly remember my dreams because of my insomnia medications
35. i don’t cry in front of anyone it embarrasses me beyond belief
36. i do. and i —
— heavily believe in second chances, but there is a limit, and i recognize that.
37. forgive. but i don’t forget.
38. definitely not
39. i was 5 i think and my neighbor three doors down was my first “boyfriend” (we just held hands all the time) and we were playing on his —
37. forgive. but i don’t forget.
38. definitely not
39. i was 5 i think and my neighbor three doors down was my first “boyfriend” (we just held hands all the time) and we were playing on his —
— trampoline; he did a backflip, landed in front of me, and then kissed me. it shocked/scared me so bad because my mom told me to never kiss boys (and that if i did, i’d be in trouble), so i ran home SOBBING.
40. as a small child, yes.
(41-50 are missing??)
40. as a small child, yes.
(41-50 are missing??)
51. uhh?? i like pasta a lot. any pasta sign me up
52. yes, or else it wouldn’t happen. but also no? because there’s a lot of unnecessary evil out there
53. i cried lmao
54. NO
55. depends on who you ask
56. maybe five or six
57. very much so
58. that space between —
52. yes, or else it wouldn’t happen. but also no? because there’s a lot of unnecessary evil out there
53. i cried lmao
54. NO
55. depends on who you ask
56. maybe five or six
57. very much so
58. that space between —
— summer and fall when it’s not all hot but not all cold. in the middle when the leaves start to change. but i also have a thing for the weather during the summer when the sun goes down.
59. god no i don’t like being cold
60. that’s... iffy. i have a lot of reasons not to.
59. god no i don’t like being cold
60. that’s... iffy. i have a lot of reasons not to.
61. very cute i love it
62. friends. money. a good time. writing. reading. good movies. good tv shows. loud music. skateboarding. my pets. my collections. fantasizing about the sweet release of death.
63. no because a lot of people say my name fits me??
64. the last person i —
62. friends. money. a good time. writing. reading. good movies. good tv shows. loud music. skateboarding. my pets. my collections. fantasizing about the sweet release of death.
63. no because a lot of people say my name fits me??
64. the last person i —
— kisses wasn’t someone i liked, he was sort of a,, fwb. it wouldn’t be hard but i wouldn’t enjoy it.
65. i only have two best friends of the opposite sex and one is literally like a brother to me, the other is a chill guy, i guess i’d be okay with it? but there’d be a lot of —
65. i only have two best friends of the opposite sex and one is literally like a brother to me, the other is a chill guy, i guess i’d be okay with it? but there’d be a lot of —
— confusion and impulsive considerations
66. yes! his name is chandler he’s fun
67. again, chandler
68. hayden
69. i do. i also believe we have many of them, on different terms
70. i would die for any one of my best friends, no question about it. i’d also die for my mother.
66. yes! his name is chandler he’s fun
67. again, chandler
68. hayden
69. i do. i also believe we have many of them, on different terms
70. i would die for any one of my best friends, no question about it. i’d also die for my mother.
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