God this growth is so beautiful. It’s so heartwarming. God please bless me with this growth as an artist Ameen. https://twitter.com/alythuh/status/1249033516517445637">https://twitter.com/alythuh/s...

she genuinely makes me want to just become an artist for the rest of my life and nothing else... like paint and take portraits and hang up my shots in my own condo and have painting supplies and books and cameras and film lying all over my house. she’s so amazing

yeah so now i am thinking about the happy simple life i could live as an artist and it makes me so sad how out of touch i have become with my photography, aka my art. and it makes me sad that being an artist and nothing more wont be possible for me for a very long time

just thinking about art student sundus? who is emotionally healthy and comes from a loving supportive family and is studying art and communications? and she’s okay mentally and emotionally? the one thing that consoles me is that i will heal and one day be able to pursue my art

even if it’s just as a side grind. even if the day i can fully pursue art doesn’t come for a decade. i am okay with that. i like psychiatry and can see myself as a psychiatrist and an artist living in her own condo. https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="🥺" title="Pleading face" aria-label="Emoji: Pleading face">https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="🥺" title="Pleading face" aria-label="Emoji: Pleading face">https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="🥺" title="Pleading face" aria-label="Emoji: Pleading face">https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="🥺" title="Pleading face" aria-label="Emoji: Pleading face">https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="🥺" title="Pleading face" aria-label="Emoji: Pleading face">https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="🥺" title="Pleading face" aria-label="Emoji: Pleading face">https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="🥺" title="Pleading face" aria-label="Emoji: Pleading face">https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="🥺" title="Pleading face" aria-label="Emoji: Pleading face">https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="🥺" title="Pleading face" aria-label="Emoji: Pleading face">https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="🥺" title="Pleading face" aria-label="Emoji: Pleading face"> it’s just a bittersweet feeling i think