In other academic news:
I did not win a very prestigious fellowship that I was up for this year.
A THREAD
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I did not win a very prestigious fellowship that I was up for this year.
A THREAD
This award was the only thing I applied for this yr & it was truly an honor to be nominated by the pres of my Uni & the deans. I was a finalist (yay!) but my prop for book #2 didn’t win. I’m a little disappointed but mostly THRILLLLED that I was nominated & made it to the table.
I’ve never felt this way about losing a fellowship (usually i sulk for 2-3 days) but I truly do feel fantastic. Thanks to my Ford family esp @profgabrielle & also @yarimarbonilla who helped w samples!
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Ok, onto to the funny part
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I am so happy that I can finally sleep soundly bec tbh, being up for this award gave me actual literal nightmares.
I’m not even playing...let me regale you with a few short tales:
I am so happy that I can finally sleep soundly bec tbh, being up for this award gave me actual literal nightmares.
I’m not even playing...let me regale you with a few short tales:
Dream 1: I did not win but was forced 2 follow a video crew as they documented the winners who were way better than me-including an instructor who offered multigenerational community healthclases in x-large baby swing sets at the park “low impact” for elderly knees & kids alike.
In that dream I also saw an after-school teacher who led kids pied piper style (flute my dude) safely to each of their apts. I then saw an installation artist who painted with ocean & air. They were all brilliant Black folks who live in my subconscious & do better work than me
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Dream 2: I lost but was forced to sit & listen to a man from the 1930s announce all the winners & losers from the FOOT OF MY OWN BED where the podium was located.
It was very dramatic but I did get a “we regret to inform you” consolation card w lots of little sticker hearts.
It was very dramatic but I did get a “we regret to inform you” consolation card w lots of little sticker hearts.
Dream 3: I was a finalist & waited outside the jury room for hours. I was then chosen by some Univ as a fellow (that’s not even how this award works btw) but in order to get my award I had to prove that I could add demography to my book & do complex MATH.
MATH!!!
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MATH!!!
If you know me you know this was the worst of it all. Winning=yay!but having to do any MATH is my actual nightmare of LIFE. I have dyscalculia so numbers are legit kryptonite for me. I had many nightmares but suffice it to say, I slept soundly last night 4 the 1st time in months.
All that to say:
My deepest thanks to the C*rnegie Foundation for the opportunity & the hilarious nightmares & congrats to the fellows who will be announced soon.
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Big-up to you for reading the thread
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My deepest thanks to the C*rnegie Foundation for the opportunity & the hilarious nightmares & congrats to the fellows who will be announced soon.
Big-up to you for reading the thread