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kalau aku "tobat" suatu hari nanti maybe not for religious reason tapi karena ngerasa bersalah aja karena jahatnya make "real person" for "this"

even we're hiding because we know it's potentially can be disturbing for them

and I keep wondering where is the "limit", aku pernah ngereport fic bestiality di sini, dan selain itu some acct are straight up porn acc, yang follow bahkan mungkin bukan fans, it is kinda make me feel uneasy, mereka bahkan mungkin nggak tau karya mereka cuma tau sebagai

material , this is where shipping fictional character is much more easier for me because fiction is fiction

and in my opinion fiction doesn't have to confront with real world morality, you can be as crazy as you can writing fiction, but using "real person" make me think twice.

mencari pembenaran mungkin sebatas mereka celebrities, udah resiko lah jadi celeb jadi bahan fantasy fansnya, terlebih idol, yang mau diakui atau enggak emang salah satu jobnya ngasih fantasy. di sisi lain "queerbaiting" is a real thing

kfans punya istilah lain untuk itu, jadi perilaku fans mungkin juga byproduct dari itu, contoh boygroup sering ditanya "kalau kamu cewek siapa yang mau jadiin pacar?" pertanyaan2 kaya gitu kaya sengaja banget nggak sih.

dan banyak lagi situasi yang di setting biar kita dapat "bromance" entah dari game atau emang mereka di suruh ngebangun persona itu sama agensinya, we don't know how fake/sincere they're.

about this honestly I don't feel like I'm much better than them, cuma lebih baik karena aku nggak cuma nggangep dia fantasy tapi selain itu aku kan sama aja aku juga baca fanfic walau bukan partisipan di imajinasi itu, that's why I feel conflicted https://twitter.com/hancho9496/status/1248980698687352838?s=19