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I carried her to the bed we once shared. She held on to me tightly and I pulled her close, afraid that she might fall.

As I lowered her to the matress, she held tightly on the collars of my shirt.

She was about to kiss me and I almost allowed her.

But when I close my eyes, all I see is him.

His eyes filled with tears as he kissed me on the last night we shared.

How they are filled with hurt and how much I prayed to the heavens that I could take it away.

I could easily remember his voice breaking as he said my name.

And how much I hate myself that moment that I can& #39;t fully let you go to be with him.

So as I open my eyes and felt her lips about to touch mine, I know I had to pull away.

Because I know it would hurt him.

That even until now when someone else is making you happy, I& #39;m still stuck here on the same place you left me.

Feeling used and betrayed, but still hanging on to that hope that you& #39;ll return to me.

I& #39;m stuck here, still in love with you.