Okay I don't know who to send this to but here it is. i'm really sorry, for everything, for all i've done, for all that i've said. i was so confused about myself, my feelings and everything i was so confused it felt like my heart would burst into pieces. it was unbearable

and the most frustating part is i don't know how i became that way.. I don't know, I was never that type. I wasn't the type to complain when someone doesn't comply like it's my goddamn routine. It frustated me because i don't know what happened to myself? how?

And I knew I couldn't get out of the vicious cycle unless I did something. I didn't want to disappoint you more than I already did.. so leaving was my only choice. I hope you know that it was hard for me too. It was hurtful for me too.

but never, never it was caused by you. it was all me. I don't justify my treatments and words towards you either, I was in the wrong. all the blame's on me, I let my emotions rule over me and allow everything happen that way.

This whole week, I kept trying to convince myself that I didn't regret it, that it wasn't something stupid, but in the end I knew it was something that I mustn't do. I felt really bad, I felt really shitty and I meant it.

If this is what it is then I'll let this be. I was the one who initiated this anyway. I hope you live a good life. I hope you will be kept happy, healthy and safe. I hope one day you'll be so happy that you forget about your pain. I hope one day someone will truly see your worth.

I hope one day you'll be loved for who you truly are. I hope they dive so deep into you, yet they can only feel love and more love. There was a time where I thought that someone will be me, but okay. Whatever happened has already happened.

I still think of you as a great person. Not an assumption, after knowing you, I really think of you as a great person. You deserve greater things and I believe you will attain them on your own.

I hope you don't forget me. This foolish little creature who only knows how to make bad decisions.. again, this is it, this is the goodbye. I hope you're reading this. This thread may revolt you, but I swear what I am gonna say next is even more revolting.

I love you, I always do. Goodbye. Be happy.