Chansoo au (1/3) [Reposted]

"You say to me you made a dumb mistake, You start to tremble and your voice begins to break, You say the cigarettes on the counter weren't your friend's,They were your mate's and I feel the color draining from my face"

The break up that can't be undo

Note :
- It was originally in 3 parts but I'll post it all in this thread
- Super angsty with character death

Kyungsoo comes home feeling tired after a long day at work, not to mention he was scolded bad as he wrongfully accused by his boss for things he didn't do.

Luckily, he was proven innocent and the boss had apologized but it's not easy to forget that feeling and damn he feels

exhausted.

He fits his key into the door lock, already imagining a long freshening shower and his comfy bed.

He sighs as he enters his apartment, only stopped when he sees a tall figure, a person he realizes he's been missing a lot, his boyfriend, sitting on a stool

at their dining table, sipping on his coffee while scrolling through his phone.

Kyungsoo smiles at the sight. He's been missing his boyfriend as if they didn't meet everyday.

Maybe its because they've been busy with works lately? Maybe the lack of cuddles and goodnight kiss?

or maybe the lack of morning greetings ? Kyungsoo doesn't know since when and why things are suddenly become like this.

It feels cold. It feels awkward and kyungsoo hates that feeling. It's been so long since they have a decent conversation.

So, kyungsoo beats his

tiredness, making his ways silently towards his boyfriend and wraps his arms around the taller's waist from behind. Chanyeol visibly freezes but says nothing.

"I miss you" kyungsoo says as he inhales the scent of his lover, though the scent smells different than the

one kyungsoo likes.

When chanyeol doesn't respond, kyungsoo can't help but feels a little disappointed. He releases chanyeol's waist and move around to sit in front of him. Chanyeol doesn't look at him, much to his dismay

"Why are you still up? It's late" kyungsoo tries asks

"I just woke up" is chanyeol's short reply.

Kyungsoo bites his lips. he actually hopes chanyeol would say something like "I'm waiting for you" or "I can't sleep without you" or any sweet remarks like he used to.

But its just all wishful thinking. Silence grows between them.

Kyungsoo doesn't remember the start of this growing distance, this growing cold, this growing awkwardness and he hates it.

Kyungsoo ever asked about this to chanyeol and the latter just shrugs, saying that he's just tired.

The next time kyungsoo brought up the topics

again, chanyeol was irritated and upset because of it and become more colder than ever.

Kyungsoo is afraid. Kyungsoo is scared. So many what ifs running in his mind, and he can't shake it off.

But this, has become too much, kyungsoo is exhausted. He wants comfort.

He wants love. Chanyeol was always there giving all the love to kyungsoo. But not anymore.

Kyungsoo takes a deep breath and braces himself for whatever to come

"Chanyeol.. are we okay?" kyungsoo finally says, trying hard to hide his trembling voice. He looks up

to meet chanyeol's eyes but only to witness chanyeol looks away immediately, avoiding his eyes.

Kyungsoo feels like he's just been stabbed on his heart by the gesture.

How does it feels to have someone you love doesn't even want to meet your eyes? It hurts. It fucking hurts.

Kyungsoo feels as if chanyeol is disgusted to even look at his face. As if kyungsoo is not worthy of his boyfriend's attention. It hurts. Darn it hurts so much. The prickling in his heart becoming more painful, tears start forming in his eyes.

-What are you trying to hide?- kyungsoo asks in his head

Chanyeol hasn't reply him. Still looking away from him. Kyungsoo sighs again.

He reaches out to hold chanyeol's hand but it feels cold, the warmth used to spark as they touched has gone.
What hurts more is

the fact that chanyeol suddenly pulls away his hand from kyungsoo, as if kyungsoo is doing something taboo. As if holding hands is a sin

"Chanyeol, please tell me what did i do wrong?" Kyungsoo sees the face chanyeol makes, sad? Upset? guilty?

Kyungsoo notices

how chanyeol is trembling and his voice shaking when he mutters "You did nothing wrong kyungsoo"

Kyungsoo stutters at the mentioned of his name, feeling dejected that chanyeol doesnt call him "soo" anymore. The nickname, chanyeol always call him with.

"Then, what is?"

"it's me. It's me who is wrong" chanyeol says.

Kyungsoo tries hard not to choke up. Why does they have this kind of relationship, what happened? How does things turn out to be this way?

"I made a dumb mistake" Chanyeol says, kyungsoo notices the trembling voice and breath

kyungsoo sucks in air, breathing heavily. His heartbeat is soaring in his chest, afraid of the next words to come.

Chanyeol looks to his right and kyungsoo follows his eyes. There's nothing there except for cigarettes sticking out from the ashtray.

Kyungsoo furrows his

eyebrows, not understanding the gesture. Chanyeol sighs

"I brought someone here when you're not home" Kyungsoo's breath hitches, he can interpret the words to so many meanings but he doesn't want to rush into conclusion. So he close his eyes, containing his feelings

"your friends?" A beat of silence. Then a sigh again
"No"
Kyungsoo flinches at the cold tone, not wanting to hear the words he doesn't want to. Tears has been pooling in his eyes but he holds it.

"I cheated on you. I had sex with another person" There goes the words

Kyungsoo so afraid to hear, but here it is. Kyungsoo feels like his body is ripped open and stabbed repeatedly.

"You had a one night stand?" kyungsooquietly asks, chanyeol is now looking at him with a sad but cold eyes.

It hurts because this is not the

Chanyeol who used to love him so much.

"No kyungsoo. It's not a one time thing. I love him"

There goes kyungsoo's energy drain out from him. He freezes on his spot, caught on his breath, he can't believe there'll be come a day he'll hear his boyfriend says that

-I love him-

Chanyeol's words repeatedly comes to his mind like daggers

"Kyungsoo, I..."
"You, don't love me anymore?" kyungsoo bravely asks, though he can guess the answer but he wants to hear it, even if it hurts

"I...no"

Everything is too much. Kyungsoo is wrecked mentally and physically. The tears he's been holding is now can't be stopped.

Kyungsoo, i'm sorry. I still care for you--"

"Shut up" kyungsoo scowls and chanyeol does instantly

Kyungsoo clenches his trembling fists.

"Since when?" "

...2 months?" chanyeol answers

Kyungsoo takes a deep breath, eyes still overflowing with tears. Chanyeol has been fucking someone behind his back for two months? That's the worst information of all he heard today.

"Why now?"

"I thought it was just a phase. But its not. It....it doesn't work between us anymore"

Kyungsoo scoffs "You fucking someone else for the past two months and suddenly come to me saying we don't work? And here i am spending days missing you and asking myself

how do we become this way and how do i fix this"
"Kyungsoo. We can't be fixed. I'm sorry"
"Is that easy for you ?"

Chanyeol doesn't answer. Silence fills the room

"Why?... What have i done wrong?" kyungsoo asks, voice hoarse

"It's not you.. It's me.. I cheated on you. I was wrong. But things happened and i don't want to hurt you a lot more"

"But it hurts. It so fucking hurts here chanyeol" kyungsoo places his hand on his furious beating heart
"I'm sorry"
"I thought you love me"
"I loved you"

"you liar. You fucking liar !"
"I'm not ! I did love you with all my heart"
"Then what is this?"
"i don't know, it just happened. One day i wake up and realize that i'm in love with someone else"

Kyungsoo is speechless, as if he isn't hurting much already, chanyeol just

adds salt to his open wounds.
"Kyungsoo, im sorry-"
"Don't" Kyungsoo says, voice broken

He hates how easy chanyeol saying all this and just say sorry to end things. He hates how he can't take everything as easy, how it affects him so much.

Then, chanyeol left, kyungsoo cries

Baekhyun forces kyungsoo to sit up from his bed and places a tray of food on his lap

"Eat kyungsoo, you're gonna die"
"That'll be better" kyungsoo says bitterly
"Nonsense ! He's the one who cheat, why are you torturing yourself?"
"I know ! He's the one who

fucking cheated on me ! But i am the one who miserable ! I bet he's happy he finally get rid of me!" kyungsoo half shouts, making baekhyun flinches. Baekhyun puts away the tray and scoots closer to hug his bestfriend

"I'm sorry" he mutters as he rubs kyungsoo's back soothingly

That makes kyungsoo burst out into tears again

"Why do i have to love him this much ? Why is this so painful ? Why is it even i know he cheated on me, i still want him back ? Why am i so pathetic" kyungsoo says between his cries

"You have to let him go. It'll be alright"

"It's not easy baek"
"I know, I know you love him. But its over. Its over, kyungsoo"

Kyungsoo hiccups, still refusing reality. Baekhyun's shirt is now wet from his tears

"i know its not easy, but you gotta let him go. You're only gonna hurt yourself like this"

Kyungsoo going through old messages, trying to understand the moment their love faded away.

He scrolls up from the start, reminiscing all the memories when they're so in love with each other.

loChanyeol would always text him, making sure kyungsoo knows how

much he loved him, every single day. Though kyungsoo knows he isn't perfect, chanyeol always reassures him how perfect he is in chanyeol's eyes.

That makes kyungsoo irritated so suddenly. They were so in love, especially chanyeol who always been transparent about his love for

Kyungsoo, but how does it faded? Kyungsoo can't understand.

He scrolls down again until the point where chanyeol's text become once in two days instead of everyday, then it got lesser and lesser until he stopped.

Kyungsoo can't help the tears flowing out of his eyes again.

He knows he's only torturing himself by reading old messages but he can't help himself. He remembers that days where chanyeol become indifference to him.

He too, as chanyeol said, thought it was only a phase but it continues, the growing distance.

--i love him-- chanyeol's

words keep playing in his head and it always manage to successfully rip his wounds over and over again.

Honestly? Kyungsoo couldn't care less how chanyeol's been fucking somebody else, what hurts most is the feeling of betrayal. They were boyfriends for 3 years, never fought

Never have relationship problem, they were so in love to the point of deciding to live together.

Then one day chanyeol said he cheated and love someone else? That's the worst betrayal ever felt, from someone you never expect to betray.

The memories

keep haunting kyungsoo after days.

All of his friends tell him to move on, to let chanyeol go, to forget him. But for real though, its not that easy.

The more kyungsoo remembers, the more he can't believe what chanyeol did to him, the more he want to stay. Until one day,

he makes himself realize that crying over a spilled milk is just a waste of time. Chanyeol is probably happy with his current boyfriend, why does kyungsoo has to hold on to him?

Its true, they said time heals, because kyungsoo is starting to let the past go. He deleted all

the messages, all the memories, burn their stuffs.

Its's a start. It's not easy. But it'll be alright. That's what baekhyun always say to him. Yes, baekhyun have been there with kyungsoo mending his broken heart, baekhyun is the one encourage him to live another day,

to let him know its not the end of life, to tell him there's always next time, he'll fall in love with someone who deserve him

"How are you now?"
"I'm good i guess"
"i'm glad"
"Thank you baekhyun, for everything, really. Thank you for being patient with me"

"You deserve someone who loves you enough kyungsoo, i don't wanna see you hurt"

Sometimes kyungsoo feels baekhyun is overly caring to him like he doesn't have to but he did ! He always there to comfort kyungsoo. Always there with sweet talks and gestures. Kyungsoo

glad he has someone like baekhyun by his side. Thanks to baekhyun,never gave up knocking senses into him, he can walk another step ready to move on.

Baekhyun on the other side, is proud of kyungsoo progress, he glad that kyungsoo didn't fall into deep depression. He cares a lot

for kyungsoo. He would do anything to see kyungsoo happy.

It's a thing he promised himself when he finally accepted the fact that kyungsoo was in love with chanyeol. Its when baekhyun realized, the man he loved since forever didn't love him back, but

came excitedly to tell him, his crush chanyeol confessed to him.

It was that day, baekhyun locked himself up in his room crying for his unrequited love and decided to bury it deep so no one would know, not even kyungsoo. It was also the same day, baekhyun promised

himself that he'll make sure kyungsoo is happy, he would do anything to protect him, even if he know he can't have kyungsoo for himself.

But that what love is, its a sacrifice

(PART 2/3)

You deserve better by James Arthur

"And I hope you find somebody else, That'll love you like nobody else, And I hope he gives you something real, oh, I love you still, But you deserve better, Might be what you want, but not what you need"

Chanyeol pov!

"I saw kyungsoo earlier" sehun starts, chanyeol flinches, he clears his throat, acting unaffected "so?"
Sehun rolls his eyes "Aren't you gonna ask how is he?" Chanyeol hesitates "h-how i-is h-he ?"
Sehun purses his lips "A mess ? Wrecked ? I don't know, a zombie?"

"Is it that bad?" "He looks dead but physically alive, like he's been stabbed repeatedly, not to mention...by you"

Chanyeol flinches at the harsh remark
"sehun, are you gonna rub it on me like this?"
"Yes, i'll keep rubbing it in until you're sane enough to realize

that you're being ridiculous"
"Sehun, you know my reason"
"Chanyeol ! You're a fucking idiot, you know that?"
"what do you want me to do!?"
"Kyungsoo deserve the truth, tell him!"
"I..no..i can't.."
Sehun rolls his eyes again
"You're hurting yourself too chanyeol"

"Kyungsoo deserves better" chanyeol sighs
"Is this your definition of better ? He's basically dead, do you even love him?"

Chanyeol looks offended "Of course i love him ! I did this because i love him !, he'll be hurt a lot more if he knows im....." chanyeol pauses,

"There's always alternative, you can take treatments, or anything so you can get better"
"Sehun, i'm dying. It can't be helped. It can't be cured. My heart is getting weak, i can feel my soul trying to leave my body every time. And...I... I don't want to hurt kyungsoo"

Reality hurts.

"What are you gonna do then?"
"Kyungsoo deserves someone better, he deserves someone that will love him, someone that can take care of him, someone that are healthy...unlike me"

Sehun takes a deep breathe, he closes his eyes for seconds
"Dont you think

it'll be worse if kyungsoo knows you're lying?"
"That's why i need you to shut up. Help me. Keep this only between us"
Sehun sighs "Still. You're being unfair"
"I don't have other choice sehun"
"why won't you tell him ?"
"Sehun, i was there when kyungsoo

lost his father, he was devastated, he refused to eat for days, it was a mess and i couldn't bear to see him hurting like that"
"What makes you think by doing this, he'll cope it better when you're finally.....?"
"At least he hates me now, he'll get rid of me, i want him

to move on. To find someone else. When that day comes, i'll die peacefully, knowing that he's loved and less hurt to see that i'm gone"
"what about you?"
"Me ? I'm dying. There's nothing to do. The only thing i wish to see before i die is kyungsoo's happiness"

"Chanyeol.."
"I love him.. And it fucking hurts me that i have to go. That i have to leave him. That I can't be there to make him happy. That i can't do anything to undo this fucking illness ! So please sehun, this is my last wish to you"
"what?"
"I want to meet baekhyun"

"What do you want?" baekhyun says, frowning, crossing his arms
"calm down" chanyeol says, noticing baekhyun's red face "i'm trying hard not to punch you in the face right now, so make this quick"

Chanyeol gulps before taking a deep breath

"Do you remember what you said to me that time you gave up on kyungsoo?"

That triggers baekhyun, he's in rage, he surges forward and grabs chanyeol by the collar, breathing heavily with sharp glare, chanyeol is startled but trying to remain calm

"You fucking douchebag !"

Baekhyun glares, chanyeol looks away

"I told you to never broke his heart ! You promised me you'll not make him cry ! I fucking told you to take care of him !" baekhyun grits his teeth

Chanyeol bites his inside cheeks, dont know what to answer, baekhyun hasn't let go his

collar

"If I know you'll break him like this, i would never let him go to you ! I really want to kill you right now"

Chanyeol snorts weakly "You don't have to.. Your wish already granted"

Baekhyun loosens his grip, suddenly confused by the vague statement.

Kyungsoo, so please make him fall for you"

Baekhyun frowns again "what do you think kyungsoo is ? An object ? You fucking used him and cheated on him, now you want him to fall for someone else? That easy for you?"

"I can't bear to see him hurt, baekhyun. And i know he deserve

someone who'll love him like nobody else. I believe that someone is you"
"oh now you wanna act all hero because you're guilty you fucking broke him?"

Chanyeol sucks in air, growing impatient

"Look baekhyun, this is your chance. You love him. Then, make him yours. Make

him happy"

Baekhyun slams the table, clearly upset
"Are you blind ? Kyungsoo always chose you ! He always love you ! When he knows you cheated on him, he breaks so much ! He's not a toy, you cant just use him and throw him to someone else ! Yes ! I love him. Always will be.

But i know my place. I'm not blind. And you...I...I thought you love him... I'm disappointed in you chanyeol.. Now stop interfering with our lives, i'll take care of kyungsoo. Leave us alone" Baekhyun turns to leave, but stopped the moment chanyeol says

"I'm dying baekhyun"

baekhyun freezes on his step, trying to register the words. When baekhyun doesn't say anything, chanyeol continues
"I can't take care of him, as much as i want it. I can't be there for him. I'm dying. I don't have much time, so please baekhyun"

Baekhyun turns around,

finally realizing how pale chanyeol's complexion is, there's eyebags under his eyes and his weak breathing is visible

"what are you saying?" baekhyun asks, want to confirm his thoughts

"I...I am dying. And this is my last wish, please" the voice comes out breathy

As if on cue, chanyeol's body react, he clutches on his chest to bear the pain, baekhyun panics and goes forward to help chanyeol sit properly, he could hear chanyeol breathing heavily

"Are..are you..okay? You need to go to hospital?"
"No just give me a minute"

Chanyeol closes his his, gritting his teeth, he needs to be strong. For kyungsoo. He needs to. He bear another constrict in his heart before calming down minutes later.

Baekhyun gulps. Slowly, chanyeol looks at baekhyun with red and wet eyes. Baekhyun stutters at the sight

"I love kyungsoo with all my dying heart. That's why i need to make sure he's on a good hands before i could die peacefully" chanyeol starts again.

Baekhyun is spechless can't process the sudden situation
"and you. I know you're the right one for him"

"I don't...understand"
"its a heart failure, and its getting weak, i'll die anytime soon"
"You mean you didn't cheat on kyungsoo?"
Chanyeol smiles bitterly
"I would never do that to my kyungsoo"
A pause.
"Then why did you lie to him?"

Chanyeol takes a deep breath, eyes rolling as it goes, his heart is still in pain but he ignores it

"It'll be easier for him to let me go. That's why i need you to help me, to help him move on, to forget me, hate me even. And i want to make sure he has someone who

can take care of him, love him. Then i can die. That's the last thing i want"

"That's impossible. Kyungsoo... He loves you so much.. I can't just simply replacing you...I.."

"No baekhyun, it's possible, don't give up like this. I wont give up this until i die, i need you

with me" Baekhyun is still speechless

"Now answer me, truthfully.. Do you still love kyungsoo?" "I..." baekhyun nods. Cant bring himself to says the words.

Chanyeol's heart clenched, he sigh in relief "Then, it is possible. Love always win, you just have to fight"

"I.. I can't chanyeol.. This is.. I cant do this..."
"Baekhyun, if you can't do this for the sake of a dying man's wish, then do it for the sake of kyungsoo, please" Baekhyun visibly gulps
"What do you want me to do?"
"Easy. You just have to win his heart. I'll help you"

Then, its starts. Chanyeol has been telling baekhyun all about kyungsoo, what he likes, what he hates, how he likes to be treated.

From A to Z, no details left out. From step 1 to another step and another step, chanyeol guides baekhyun with all his might,

Though the time is ticking, his heart getting weak, he holds himself together to live another day. He's there everytime to watch kyungso from afar, to witness the beautiful smile finally appears on kyungsoo again. This time its because of baekhyun.

Chanyeol smiles, he feels

Jealous, but he knows this is the best. He tries his best not to be noticed by kyungsoo, although he's been watching over him everyday. Kyungsoo is like his vitamin, his strength to carry on his steps. And he's glad that kyungsoo has been a lot better now. He can finally breathe

without worrying too much about kyungsoo.

Because he knows baekhyun will be there when he's dead.

"i see you making good progress" chanyeol teases when they meet that evening

Baekhyun is not smiling, he's frowning
"How are you?" He asks

Chanyeol smiles, closes his eyes as he inhales the fresh air "I can die happy now"
"Chanyeol i'm serious"
Chanyeol chuckles "i'm not joking"
"What about trying to meet heart specialist? Abroad?"
"Its no use. I'm dying anyway"
"Why are you talking about dying so easily?!"

Baekhyun getting upset

"I'm trying my best to accept my fate here. I too, wish i'm not dying. But I am" chanyeol answers

Baekhyun just stares at him
"I'm sorry" he mutters
Chanyeol chuckles "Hey, don't pity me ! Everyone will die, its just that mine is closer"

Baekhyun takes a deep breath
"Now what?" baekhyun asks
"Keep doing what you did, I'm sure kyungsoo is starting to move on"
"Are you gonna hide this til the end?"
"Yes, and please, don't tell him. Just do what you're supposed to do and bury this secret with me"

"What if kyungsoo finds out?"
"i don't want to imagine that. The only person knows about this is you and sehun. And i trust you both enough to seal this"
"Don't you think kyungsoo should know?"
"he should. Eventually. But not now. So, whatever you're thinking, cut it off"

Chanyeol coughs blood into his hand, his heart clenches. He clutches his hand to hide it but baekhyun sees it anyway
"chanyeol.." baekhyun can only look at him with sad eyes, not knowing what to say.
"You can have kyungsoo now. But i'll win him on the next life" chanyeol grins

(PART 3/3)

Now that chanyeol can see kyungsoo finally smiles again, he feels relief. Even if he's not the reason for that beautiful smile anymore. He takes a deep breath, feeling his heart growing weaker everyday. Is it the time to go yet?

"Hey baby, lets go out" baekhyun singsongs to which kyungsoo rolls his eyes, but smile nonetheless
"Who are you calling a baby?"
"You of course, MY baby" baekhyun tries to pinch both kyungsoo's cheeks but got swat away immediately

"I'm not a baby" Kyungsoo says, Baekhyun grins
"But you didn't deny that you're mine, is that a progress ? Applause for Byun Baekhyun everybody !" baekhyun flashes his teeth and claps for himself

Kyungsoo chuckles "You're insufferable"

Baekhyun just grins at him
"Let's go" baekhyun pulls kyungsoo's arm and kyungsoo lets him. Its hard to say no to baekhyun, he always has his ways.

When chanyeol broke up with kyungsoo, baekhyun has been the one patiently dealing with kyungsoo's unstable state of emotions,

He forces kyungsoo to eat when he refused, he makes kyungsoo go out and take a breath

when kyungsoo just want to sleep, he makes joke and tries hard to be funny just to cheer kyungsoo up.

He's that kind of friend that everyone needs.

Honestly? If its not for baekhyun's

persistence, kyungsoo couldn't imagine what will happen to him. So lets just say, kyungsoo is thankful to baekhyun. He can finally get up and walk another step, he gains energy that lost when chanyeol left him.

Well, he can't just say he moved on completely, of course

he sometimes reminded of chanyeol. He's in love with chanyeol, and the betrayal is just...damn hurt. But, he gotta continue life isn't it?

So he gathers his broken pieces and slowly mend it back together. Its no use crying over a spilled milk. He can say, he passed

that phase, not completely, but he did and he proud of it.

And baekhyun, alongside kyungsoo, he always there keep reassuring that it'll be alright until kyungsoo believe him and kyungsoo did.

One day, don't know how it happened, baekhyun had confessed. Kyungsoo's

first reaction is being stunned. Baekhyun chuckles at this, he kind of expected this

"You don't have to love me back...yet" baekhyun reasons

"I know you just end things, and it feels like i'm taking advantage of the situation but i'm not..I, I always love you

since high school. Before you even meet chanyeol" Baekhyun let it all out
Kyungsoo widen his eyes "H-high s-school? Why didn't you say anything?"
Baekhyun sighs "Because I'm a coward, i'm afraid to ruin our friendship. And one day.. You came to me saying you fell in

love with chanyeol. You look so in love that i decided to let you go, to just bury my feelings"

Kyungsoo is a loss at words, how can he never know that?

"But I..baekhyun..I"

Baekhyun comes closer and holds both kyungsoo's hands, kyungsoo doesn't flinch
"I just wanna say,

my feelings for you hasn't change"
"Baekhyun, this is so sudden i..."
"I know kyungsoo. You might be not ready to love again. Not now. So here I am, want you to know that I'll wait for you, until you ready"
"Baekhyun, i'm not...sure"

"Hey, no pressure. Its okay if you don't return my feelings back. I'm just saying that I love you and I'll wait for you. Til then, i'll take care of you, i'll make you happy. Even if one day, you fell in love with someone else, i'll always be there for you when you need me"

Kyungsoo smiles "Why are you so selfless?"
"Because loving you has that effects on me"
"Baekhyun, i don't want to hurt you"
"My priority is you kyungsoo. It'll hurt me more if you don't at least give me a chance" Baekhyun can see hesitation in kyungsoo's eyes

"You deserve happiness kyungsoo, i'm gonna make sure you're happy, whatever it is"

Kyungsoo visibly softens. He pulls his hand back from baekhyun grips and sneaks it around baekhyun's waist who is startled at the sudden gesture.

Baekhyun hugs him back and smiles
"Is this a yes" baekhyun asks, Kyungsoo nods on his chest.
Baekhyun beams, mentally screaming. He tightens his arm around kyungsoo.

A little away from them, there's chanyeol smiling at the whole scene, despite the tears pooling in his eyes

"Hey, i'm going to my grandma house this weekend, wanna tag along?" baekhyun says as he helps kyungsoo picking up the fruits to buy

"Oh what's the occasion?"

"Its her 80th birthday, everyone's gonna be there. I want to introduce you to them"

"O-oh hmm"

kyungsoo stutters
"Its okay if you're not ready, you can say no . i wouldn't mind, though i really hope you agree. but well, no pressure! I mean--ack"
Kyungsoo smacks him on his head "You're rambling" Baekhyun nervously grins "Sorry?"
kyungsoo chuckles

"Why are you so nervous?" kyungsoo tries to tease "Because its mean a lot to me" baekhyun says seriously, kyungsoo softens
"Okay, i'll go with you"
baekhyun's whole face lights up
"Really?" baekhyun grabs kyungsoo's arm out of excitement while grinning,

kyungsoo could see his imaginary tails wagging if he's a puppy
"Yes, now help me pick some apples and we go home" "Yes sir !" baekhyun salutes, kyungsoo shakes his head but smiles at him

"Oh, hi both of you !" comes a voice from behind, they both turn to look at him

"Sehun !" Baekhun exclaims and hugs the taller, kyungsoo smiles

It feels a little awkward since sehun is chanyeol's besrfriend and kyungsoo hadn't meet him for a long time

"You alone?" kyungsoo asks, just to make sure
"I'm with junmyeon"
"Ooh youre on shopping date !"

"Something like that" sehun smiles

On cue, comes another voice startling them
"Oh sehun !" it is jongin, one of their friends. He comes to greet them and immediately asks sehun
"Man, i heard chanyeol fainted yesterday at your house, how's he now?"

Everyone freezes.

Sehun breaks it sweat. He glances at kyungsoo who is looking at him with his eyebrows furrowed. Sehun gulps

"I want to visit him, can you give me the details?" jongin continues
"ah y-eah, i'll text you"
"Thanks man, I heard he's really sick and has his days counted"

Kyungsoo drops whatever he's holding, feeling his energy sucks out by the new information, he freezes on his spot, trying to process the info, jongin's words echo in his mind like a mantra

'..his..days..coun..ted..?' Kyungsoo chants in his mind. Baekhyun, already know

the real situation, becoming concern at freezing kyungsoo. Sehun gulps again

"Thanks, well i'll see you" jongin says before leaving them three who stands in silence

"Kyungsoo..." Baekhyun tries, reaching to hold kyungsoo's hand but kyungsoo pulls it back forcefully

eyes brimming with tears
"What does that mean?" kyungsoo asks sehun with his already red eyes.

For some reason, he doesn't feel good about it. Sehun's nervous, not knowing what to say, he looks at baekhyun for help but baekhyun is looking equally helpless

"Say something !" Kyungsoo half shouts
"Kyungsoo, its..I..I..can't..tell you" Kyungsoo now has tears in his eyes, not knowing what to expect, confused but really really worried. He looks at baekhyun who looks at him back

"Baekhyun.. did I.. did I heard it w-rong?"

Kyungsoo asks so vulnerably, baekhyun is weak at this. He promised he'll make kyungsoo happy and he can't bear to see another pain in kyungsoo's eyes. Baekhyun sighs.

He looks at sehun and signalling him to just tell the truth, sehun frowns at him and shakes his head

"Sehun..please, kyungsoo deserves to know" baekhyun says, kyungsoo is getting more confused

Sehun contemplates, taking a deep deep breath before sighing out.

So Sehun tells. Everything. From the start. Chanyeol's lies. Everything. Kyungsoo freezes completely,

the world is upside down in his vision, blurry with tears that can't stop flowing out. He feels like he just been struck by a lightning. His legs become wobbly, he almost fell to the ground, if baekhyun doesn't hold him tight.

"Kyungsoo, breathe with me" Baekhyun guides

kyungsoo who seems to lose his breathing, still can't recover from the shock
"W-wh-y?" comes kyungsoo's weak voice

"It's his last wish, I'm sorry"

Kyungsoo feels like his heart breaking into million pieces at the words "last" .

He stands up and slowly leaves, making both

sehun and baekhyun confused. Baekhyun follows him.
"Kyungsoo.."
"Baekhyun, i...i want go be alone" Kyungsoo says.

Baekhyun knows better not to press on. Kyungsoo always prefer to be alone to sort out his mind. So baekhyun should understand that
"Please be safe, hmm?"

Baekhyun wipes kyungsoo's tears, kyungsoo doesn't say anything and just leave.

Later, he arrives at the park, with head throbbing with ache, he sits at their favorite place. Staring soullessly to the ground, trying to connect the dots, still can't stop his tears

Sehun who just left by kyungsoo and baekhyun, immediately takes on his phone and dials chanyeol's number. The latter picks up after the fourth rings
"Yes, sehun ?" chanyeol says after a few coughing "Chanyeol..."
Then sehun tells chanyeol what just happened

Chanyeol widens his eyes, growing concern with kyungsoo

"he's breaking down again ! because of me ! I...I need..to see him" Chanyeol says to himself
"I need to see him" chanyeol says louder, startling the nurse who is attending him.

Chanyeol pulls out the thing in his hand and starts getting up, much to the nurse surprise
"Sir, you're under a watch, you can't go yet"

Chanyeol doesn't care. He ignores the pain throbs. He dresses up with only one thing in his mind.
Kyungsoo.

On his way to his car, he receives another call, from baekhyun, he presses answer immediately

"Chanyeol. Kyungsoo..." Baekhyun trails his words

"Tell me where he is"

So baekhyun tells chanyeol. Although he did give kyungsoo space he wanted, he watches kyungsoo from afar

Kyungsoo is sitting alone on a bench, staring at his own shoes, not that he could see it very well as his vision is too blurry. He has trouble breathing for crying too much, he doesn't care if anyone can see him right now, he feels like breaking little by little.

He tries hard to suppress those pain, he doesn't want to cry more but he just can't, the pain is too much.

Until when suddenly another pair of shoes enters his sight, a very familiar one, stopping right in front of him.

Kyungsoo's breath hitches as he slowly looks up, his heart shatters at the sight of Chanyeol.

"Soo" the taller mutters quietly

Kyungsoo's lips tremble, without thinking much he jumps into Chanyeol's embrace and cries his heart out.

Chanyeol hugs Kyungsoo's tight, rubbing a comforting circle on the latter's back and hair, pulling him closer and closer as he cries himself out too.

The sound of Kyungsoo's cry breaks his heart the most.

"I'm sorry" He quietly says, that onlt makes Kyungsoo cries even more

The room is silence despite there are people in it, they all have their heads down, some quietly staring at Kyungsoo who is holding the sleeping Chanyeol's hand tightly beside the bed.

It's sad, It's gloomy.

Suddenly Kyungsoo feels his hand being squeezed, he looks at

Chanyeol smiling weakly at him.

"Hey" Chanyeol's voice is hoarse, Kyungsoo has to bite his lips to hold back his tears.

"This is why i don't want you to know, I don't want to see you cry like this" Chanyeol mutters breathily

Kyungsoo then wipes his tears off, shaking his head

as if trying to reassure that he's fine.

"Alright, you can cry now..cry it all now...so that the only thing you'll do after this is smile and be happy hmm ?" Chanyeol adds, reaching out his hand in the air, Kyungsoo immediately leans into the touch, squeezing another tears out

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