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I never expect that adulthood could be this terrible. This is thread btw. Let me tell you my living as an adult life.
I thought that my adulthood started at the moment when i had to choose to continue my study, studying the course that I never expect to get, but nvm bcoz i love to study. At that time, i was happy because i had to experience how it was going to the University.
2016,Jun, i went to the local university, dont care about what others said about the course i took because at that time I only knew that I want to continue study, i love studying very much. 1week homesick, it& #39;s kinda hurt when you never get that far from family,yet you have to.
Everything was fine when I started to busy myself at the University. Though i know that my biggest fear during studying far away from family is that lack of money to buy food, no food to eat, no money to buy this n that especially the needs of studying like photocopy etc.
I was very lucky that my friends, from semester 1 till i finished my study, never left me behind during my hard time in university or during practicum. Thank you so much, only God can repay what you guys have helped me. Yet, during my semester 2, on my way to class . .
My cousin text me that my grandma died. At that time i was with my friend and i don& #39;t care who ever saw us that time, i cried so loudly in the toilet till my friend have to calm me down. I& #39;ve lost my one and only supporter when there& #39;s no one else there for me. I told my friend
That i need to go back. She lend me her money and ask me to calm down. I took the bus at 2pm and was crying the whole way . 7hrs in the bus, my heart can& #39;t stop calling my grandma, why she left when i can& #39;t even give her everything that she deserved? I was so frustrated.
After Grandma& #39;s death, also one bad things happen to my class during studying. During semester 3, big things happen till we have to change our class teacher. Just because we cannot do the event & present it to her like what she wants at that time, we all been punished.
1. I take the course that i didn& #39;t like at all to continue study
2. Grandma left me.
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3. Have problems with lecturer.
And during the problems happened, my mom contacted me that she losed her job. It so hard for me at that time to continue but thanks God, everything gone well.
2. Grandma left me.
3. Have problems with lecturer.
And during the problems happened, my mom contacted me that she losed her job. It so hard for me at that time to continue but thanks God, everything gone well.
Always lack of money, always hungry in school , that was my routine. In semester 5, i was doing my practicum at my own hometown ( at first I thought i was lucky enough but ). But because of my boss was so fucking like SATAN FROM HELL, I ask to change the place of my practicum
Stay with my friend from the same class, woah. I went through a lot. Sometimes I feel like I& #39;m a troublesome to people. I dont have enough money to pay their petrol. Feels like in hell when she sometimes tend to not talk to me the whole day without me knowing what had i did wrong
During that frustrating friend incident, i met a guy and became his gf . I slept with him if i feel that my friend is not okay. That guy always be my savior during my practicum. Finished my practicum, I don& #39;t know why, it& #39;s hard to leave because I& #39;ve been with him, about 3month
I went back to home town, i got the job as a clerk ,but after 2 months, i went back to my bf as if we& #39;re going to be okay if I stay with him. Without thinking of the effect, i left my job, left my family, just for him. But , things not going well between us.
I didn& #39;t work when I stay with him & he always skip his work because im there with him. We didn& #39;t get enough money to eat , n he always take me to his village if we& #39;re lack of money. I didn& #39;t like it very much . So before june 2019 i came back to my hometown.
Bad mouth of people, always following me. Can& #39;t sleep well , people compare me with other successful friend, stressful life. I sometimes feel like even my parents don& #39;t want to care about me anymore. https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="💔" title="Broken heart" aria-label="Emoji: Broken heart">https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="😭" title="Loudly crying face" aria-label="Emoji: Loudly crying face"> Adulthood is killing me seriously.
Even during my convocation, i came by my own. Luckily, my bf still there to help me n be the one who come during my convocation. https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="😢" title="Crying face" aria-label="Emoji: Crying face">https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="😢" title="Crying face" aria-label="Emoji: Crying face"> I wish my grandma who would come,but. https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="😢" title="Crying face" aria-label="Emoji: Crying face"> See you in heaven later, grandma. https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="❤" title="Red heart" aria-label="Emoji: Red heart">
After convocation, i still don& #39;t have any job. I helped my aunt to sell pork burger. And at the end of December 2019, my cousin offer me to work in hotel in KL. Without asking for permission from parents, i agreed!. I told my mom after my ticket is out. https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="😭" title="Loudly crying face" aria-label="Emoji: Loudly crying face">https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="😭" title="Loudly crying face" aria-label="Emoji: Loudly crying face">
My dad told me " You make your own decisions, make sure anything happens, do not come to us for help, because we cannot help". That words from my dad hurts me enough that i set in my mind to never get help from them. https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="💔" title="Broken heart" aria-label="Emoji: Broken heart">https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="💔" title="Broken heart" aria-label="Emoji: Broken heart">https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="😭" title="Loudly crying face" aria-label="Emoji: Loudly crying face">https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="😭" title="Loudly crying face" aria-label="Emoji: Loudly crying face">
Things went well, n now i love my life here. Im working, far from bad mouth of people, happy working, although i miss my family so much. After 3months working, here come this stupid virus, that stop everyone from working. I didn& #39;t get it. Why????????
I wrote this thread after been quarantine for 1 month because of thd pendamic. Yes ,i am happy as our salary paid full by the hotel. But i cannot imagine, whT if the hotel fired me to cut costs? I could not imagine, how am i going to start life one more time.
