tw: depression, eating disorder, self-harm, suicide
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so a few years ago I became very depressed. I stopped taking care of myself. I stopped eating. in just a few short months, I lost around lbs, and ended up weighing less than 100 lbs. (1/10)

I was tired all the time. I had no energy to even make food for myself. I would sleep instead of eating. I finally went to the doctor because I was having trouble breathing because I was so weak. (2/10)

so I went to the doctor for breathing problems and left with a prescription for antidepressants. I was honestly skeptical. I had seen depression before, in a friend, and it didn’t look like this. (3/10)

her depression was violent. she hurt herself, she broke down crying for no reason, she tried to take her life. she made me a friendship bracelet while she was in the hospital. (4/10)

mine was quiet, unassuming. I wasn’t trying to kill myself, I just didn’t have the energy to put the effort into living. I wasn’t crying all the time, I was just constantly sleeping. I wasn’t sad, I was just empty. (5/10)

it took me a long time to come to terms with my depression. I had trouble accepting the validity, and even more trouble finding the source. it turned out to be a lot of things, but primarily it was an identity crisis. (6/10)

I’m okay now. I take care of myself. I am a healthy weight. I no longer need the medicine, which is lucky for me. there was no cure for my depression, but removing the main source of it by working out a new identity for myself helped a lot. (7/10)

I’m still dealing with it. there are some days that are a struggle. but mostly, my days are okay. my depression has largely relaxed. (8/10)

there’s not really a point to this thread, except that for me, I was fortunate enough to have the ability to deal with the sources of my depression. I’m in a much more stable and comfortable position than I was, and I know that I’m extremely privileged for that. (9/10)

I guess what I’m saying is that not all depression is created equal, but you’re experiences are still valid, and it’s never a bad idea to seek help (if you have the means to do so).

on the off chance anyone at all reads this, my DMs are open. feel free to reach out. (10/10)