Prepare yourselves, I'm gonna bemoan a little: but the most frustrating and depressing part of the past few weeks is that it's really exasperated a general feeling of malaise I've been feeling on and off for almost a year.

Like, I've gone through moments of extreme depression before, but this has been so much worse. Is it even possible to acquire clinical depression later in life? Because I can't snap out of this. I keep trying but it is HARD.

I don't want to hurt myself or anything, please don't think that. But doing anything is this monumental effort. Like, yes, I am still getting up and doing stuff and making myself do stuff but I cannot feel any happiness in it anymore?

Anyway, I'm gonna regret this thread in 30 minutes and probably delete it.