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TW: sexual assault, grooming & rape
This is a difficult tweet(s) to make and I may even remove it for my own personal peace of mind/avoidance of triggers but after seeing @KeraStewart 's tweet thread about the disgusting and paedophilic behaviour towards young girls -
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This is a difficult tweet(s) to make and I may even remove it for my own personal peace of mind/avoidance of triggers but after seeing @KeraStewart 's tweet thread about the disgusting and paedophilic behaviour towards young girls -
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- for what appears to be a long period of time, I feel it needs to be made. To show that it is common, that it happens to a lot of women/girls, & to stand in solidarity alongside anyone who has experienced sexual assault, rape, &/or grooming via the internet or otherwise -
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- Throughout my life I have had multiple experiences of sexual assault and similar incidents. As a child at a very young I experienced a repeated occurrence of sexual assault -
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- I am not aware how many times especially as the memory of it even happening was kept secret from my conscious brain by my brain itself, a common occurrence when something traumatic happens to the mind &/or body. These memories only recently (the past 2 years perhaps) -
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- surfaced & at this point the rest of my mind was made aware of these experiences. What followed was a series of panic attacks, nightmares, and mental collapses. It is something I have only spoken to 2 people about. -
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- The boyfriend that I first had sex with, the one I lost my virginity to, on multiple occasions decided that my safeword didn't matter & perhaps -
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- that my clear verbal instructions that I was uncomfortable, in pain, & wished to stop were just another kink I had, a revolting assumption to say the least. This was the same boyfriend that when I broke up with him he waited outside my college classrooms -
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- & would ask my friends where I was because he didn't take my reasoning or the simple fact I no longer wanted to be with him as enough. Later on during my extra year of college I was a little drunk and at a guys house with a friend, she was very drunk and then I very -
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- quickly ended up being very drunk as well. I am naturally a fairly lightweight drinker however when it comes to throwing up, it rarely happens unless I have been spiked, I've eaten before drinking or I'm very much past my hard limit -
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- Things had been rather sexually fuelled all night but at some point I rushed to the bathroom and ended up emptying my stomach. Once I returned and was very clearly a mess, still almost blackout drunk, the guy who's house I was at -
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- proceeded to continue with the sexual advances, I remember being very heavy and drunk out of my mind, yet he said it was all okay and continued, ending up fully penetrating me. -
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- During secondary school, from the ages of 12/13 to 16 I was groomed online by a 34 year old man. Using all of the common tactics used by predators he fully had me within his grasp/trap/whatever you wish to call it. Over these 3/4 years, -
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- sexually explicit messages, images, & voice recordings were exchanged. I fully intended to move in with him when I left school, it had become that deep. The police were eventually involved when my mother found out, and to my knowledge he was pht on a register-
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- These experiences are all incredibly painful and difficult to touch upon, even this much. Even though I may end up deleting this thread, I hope that whilst it is here it serves to prove that this sort of thing and behaviour is a common occurrence -
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- & that this kind of thing can happen to anyone, by anyone. The abusers in my personal stories are like any other, they use their power and position- whatever that may be it comes in many shapes and sizes - to control and to get what they want -
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