"will you marry me phir se"
" Please say yes"
Here I am, guilty, to give you back your broken dreams, the happiness I snatched! You had the right to take the most important decision of your life , I took it away.
No I am not giving it back, it's your right!
I am just here to +

Give you some happiness.
The happiness you always deserved.
I am scared of rejection.
No, it's not my ego,it's my fear to lose you

" muje laga tha tum kehna chahti ho tum mujse pya.."
I thought you wanted to say you loved me, in all of your incomplete talks. I thought you felt the same as I do and thus I proposed, thinking it is your happiness as much as it is mine.
But you reject it , may be you never +

Loved me, may be I percieved it all wrong! I forced you into this relation, you being so angel you always were just stuck to it, out of your wish.
May be now you want to be our of it, thus are playing a facade in front of me, I know it's a mask.
I plead you, not to take the+

Extreme step, not to show yourself wrong because I will than be expected to stand against the wrong as always.
I plead you with my eyes, to trust me with your problems, we can solve it together, we have that strength, but now you are breaking me piece by piece

"i have nothing to do with this woman"
I say the words I never thought off! I broke the relation I always fought for. The thing I feared the most, I am doing it myself. It's literally tearing me to seperate my happiness with my own hands.

I don't know why I am doing it +

Cause you spoke against my family, cause you broke my trust by letting the biggest secret I wanted to protect out, cause you didn't love me and still stayed without any complaints, or cause you didn't trust me enough and went on with your facade . I don't know

And here I am again at your doorsteps, guilty.
I am supposed to hate you, but my heart still wishes to see you.
I still feel guilty of throwing you out that day.
Just once you could have explained yourself, and I wouldn't want an apology too.
May be I didn't earn that trust+

But my heart still can't stop beating for you!
You are engraved in my soul forever!
Here I inflict physical pain on myself, to reduce my hurting heart, to reduce the pain of throwing you out.