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okay so here goes my story; about 4 yrs ago i met ilaija through fb with one of our closet friend ehe. So yeah we went a long distance relationship about 2 yrs which i doubt we wouldnt last long becoz i dont do LDR lol, but i moved to maui on april 2017 for jobcorp. 
https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="😊" title="Smiling face with smiling eyes" aria-label="Emoji: Smiling face with smiling eyes"> it wasnt
that bad when I moved down here, so i came here for school. I started ebeleleing this dude after i finish..https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="😅" title="Smiling face with open mouth and cold sweat" aria-label="Emoji: Smiling face with open mouth and cold sweat"> it aint how we planned or how i planned but it happendhttps://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="🤷🏾♀️" title="Woman shrugging (medium dark skin tone)" aria-label="Emoji: Woman shrugging (medium dark skin tone)"> so i moved in with him on april 2018. Everything was going well for me & him
but the only thing that got in our way is that he was such an alcoholic like soo bad that he would rather go out drink his life away, smoke his life away & what not. He would always come home drunk & high. So thats wheen argument starts frm there!
theres never a day that he doesnt just come home & rest when hes really effed up but we always argue & make trouble which makes me feel guilty becoz growin up i was always taught that ij aikuj jela kautiej leo beleo bwe iban utiej jen e even the bible says that,but no im stubborn
ak ilo ao baj kalimjok lak komro wot im baj boktok melijoñ nan mwe mon ako ritto re jinen im jemen Pastors/Reverends. I felt so guilty & useless becoz they have a title but he would always come home drunk drunk, & there was nothing i could do. So i have to wait till he sobers up
to talk to him & put some sense into his head & he would always say “ i know babe my bad i wont do it” yet there goes another night he goes out havin fun with his friends drinkin & smoking. then i started questioning myself like if this foo loves u he gotta change his way for u.
i was questioning my worth like i should leave this guy if he cares he wouldnt choose to go out all the time, but gives me the attention i need too esp if i live in his home. I almost gave up on our relationship becoz i was gettin tired of his shit! I told myself i deserve so
much better & i will be better off without him. But there was one night i cried myself to sleep he was out till the next day. I prayed to God to guve me strength & tell me what i should do about my relationship cuz i couldnt do it anymore .
he came bck home the next morning & i screamed at him ta lah aurok lak am limo jen am rol tok ippen lie ippam k? I had my stuff packed & was reaaady to leave! Like seriously, but he was crying & apologizing to me that he wouldnt do it anymore. So ofc my dumbself stayed back
i am such a forgiving person that i would always forgive him for literally anything no matter how toxic the situation is/was. I didnt stayed back with him becoz i am dumb & stupid i stayed back becoz I always seen the best in him, no matter how he viewed by a lot people.
the way he was viewed frm a lot people “yeah kwojela leen k ej drug im lukkun ekadrokrok” i mean he was tbh; he use to steaal, he to drink a lot, he used to sell drugs & the parents would always get a call frm the police station to pick him up from jailhttps://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="🙄" title="Face with rolling eyes" aria-label="Emoji: Face with rolling eyes">https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="🤦🏾♀️" title="Woman facepalming (medium dark skin tone)" aria-label="Emoji: Woman facepalming (medium dark skin tone)">
he was one of the hardest battle his parents had to fight for. But i came into his life & it made things a lil bit better, but that still didnt change how alcoholic he was.
well as those nights of crying becoz i jst wanted to give up, God spoke to me & said “MY CHILD DO NOT WORRY ABOUT IT I WILL HANDLE THE SITUATION.” I would always tell ilaija “laio ah kwon ukoot e mour ne am bwe jelukkun mok kin armej ekadrokdrok, jemaron tal jen kwe”
kio ebba ne kwokonaan tal ekwe kwojab etal?Ijab drebij kwe kwon tal ñe kwokonaan etal, ak ibar lomnak tok ippa make im ba mool k lailaija ebwe an kalulu jot ien ak ij aikuj bar lomnak bwe mol ewor ien komro ej ion men ko renana botab ejab jemlak an kaman emman in kake ao aikuj.
so as those months goes by, he never stop drinkinhttps://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="🤦🏾♀️" title="Woman facepalming (medium dark skin tone)" aria-label="Emoji: Woman facepalming (medium dark skin tone)">https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="🥴" title="Woozy face" aria-label="Emoji: Woozy face"> but instead of giving so much hard time i learn to be patient & keep praying about him so he could change his life. I never stop telling him “u need to change ur life” i kept bugging him about it.
He told me “baby, jst be patient with me & keep praying i promise i will one day emaron jab kio ak ej itok ot raan eo” I listened to what he said & stop buggin him about it bwe ijela k he’ll eventually get tired of hearing me & buggin him about it. I had to stop myself right away
though i wanted to give up on him so bad, i had always seen the good in him despite the situations he would always put me through. He mightve been alchoholic & whatnot but ilaija is such a sweet soul he forgiving, lovable & always helping others. Trust me i had to learn frm him
ñe ibwod ekwe enej kajimwe ki na im ba “enana ukoot nana nan nana” jab mour rotne if u get to know him you’ll know urself. Well anyhow, i never stop praying for this dude no matter how long it took for my prayers to be answered, a wise man once said “KIJENMEJ EJAB KIJOROR”
ne kwonaj leke iõ im tomak wot inaj uaak jar eo am, so on December 1, 2019 we went church then the pastor asked if anyone wanted to give their life to Jesus. I was shivering & I could just feel his presence & him speaking to me “my child come to me & ur prayer shall be answered”
so as i went up there to the alter i was questioning myself why am i here? What if i get tempted again & backslide since my other half is not even here??? But as soon as i close my eyes, tears started falling down i could just feel Gods presence. https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="😭" title="Loudly crying face" aria-label="Emoji: Loudly crying face">
So i begin praying “LORD IF THIS IS UR CALLING, PLEASE...” i didnt even finish but there was ilaija right next to me singing his heart out crying, when i heard his voiceee i was in so much shock i kept crying & thanking the Lord. On that day December 1,2019 we accepted Jesus as
our savior! We finally gave our lives to JESUS together, my heart was filled with tears of joy. & yes its true that God can change the bad things to good things! After all those nights of arguments & fighting God finally answered my prayers! & ilaija reslly meant what he saidhttps://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="😩" title="Weary face" aria-label="Emoji: Weary face">
ladies, if ur man lovess u for who u truly are he will change his ways for u, it doesnt matter how long it will take him for change if u put ur trust & faith in God you will be in good hands I promise, but remember “PRAY IS THE KEY” for anything, with God anything is possible.
& to finish off my story on January 2020 I never knew I was expecting a lil bean till I took a home pregnancy test becoz i almost passed out at work.. so it came out positive i was shook becoz after those yrs with him i thought i was the problem & i couldnt have kid lol.
But no none of us was not the problem it just takes time for people to have a kid when God knows ur ready he’ll bless u with one, well i went to confrim everything at the hospital & they said i was 7 weeks preggo, i was like literally excited to tell my man. But the next few days
I was at work having so much cramps & pains not knowing what was happening to me, I literally went to the restroom every 5 mins becoz i didnt know why i was having so much pain it was my first time expecting a child.. so about 2 ish p.m something came off so quick it was hurting
like i didnt even know it was serious till i went to the hospital the next day becoz bro my pain was gettin a lot worst & i was bleeding pretty bad.. so i told my man lets go ER please, he took me there then i signed in whatnot doctors called me so they can check on me. They took
me to the imaging room to check what was wrong the doctor took pictures, & i could hear something. So i was like ok maybe i am fine, they never said anything so they took me out to the lobby to wait for an hour cuz they took my blood test to check if im still pregnant.
After I waited for an hour, they call my name again i went to one of the room with the doctors & then thass when she told me the bad news that i jst had miscarriage, she was explaining things to me but my heart dropped as soon as i stepped out i was crying i couldnt breathe
I was so scared to tell my man about it, but instead of waiting on him to tell him face to face i texted him about the bad news.. i frickin cried & questioned God how can u do this to me? What did i do wrong? I literally almost turn my back frm God like legit. & i was scared ilai
would do the same, but he didnthttps://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="😭" title="Loudly crying face" aria-label="Emoji: Loudly crying face"> i was so scared that he would go back to how he was but instead he remain strong for both of our sakes & comfort me. He said this to me hey you have to be strong, we might not understand whats going on but know that he gives & takes. It will b ok
I was crying to him like no this shouldnt happen to us, he goes i know baby trust me what u feelin rn is exactly how I feel i almost questioned God too, but i had to rethink that he put his people on test to see where their faiths are after ilaija told me that, i stop crying &
said ok lets pray. He said yes we should do that so we did & then everything was all good after we prayed! What scared me the most about losin the baby was that i thought ilaija would go back to his old ways & he didnt he never got tempted, losing a child is the hardest esp if
its ur first. Ak komolol Iroij bwe ekar kabelak buruo im kalemenlak ijon e ao, k iar kur im akwelap nan e ear uwaak ao jar kin ilaija im ij tomak einwot an bible ba “ewor karok kab bebe ko iburuon armej ak bebe an Jeovah enaj ben wot.” This is my living testimony.https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="😊" title="Smiling face with smiling eyes" aria-label="Emoji: Smiling face with smiling eyes">
I wanna tell you this God loves you despite who u are. You are not alone he is with you every step of the way, put ur trust & faith in him! MENNIN WOT, ANIJ EMMAN OTEMJEJ IM IEN OTEMJEJ ANIJ EMMAN! this is my testimony i wanted to share it to u all. https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="🙏🏾" title="Folded hands (medium dark skin tone)" aria-label="Emoji: Folded hands (medium dark skin tone)">https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="😌" title="Relieved face" aria-label="Emoji: Relieved face">
