I'm not sure if I could ever be in a relationship. I hate routine, it takes the life out of everything. If we're doing things just bc we feel we "have to" do them then there's limited feeling. Whoever I'm w will have to be super awake, supper connected, & also super detached.

Good morning texts? Every day? What if we do it every day for 5 days and on the 6th I don't feel like it not bc I'm mad at you but bc it's a new day that may not necessarily contain the need for a good morning text... then you're mad at me, then resentment starts...

When resentment starts, the relationship starts to decline bc that's the ultimate killer of love... resentment which is aka lack of communication.

I'm just thinking out loud but honestly... relationships seem so surface. I NEED TO CONNECT.