i used to be like this. deactivated my ig account for about 6 months or more when i was about graduated on highschool until in my early college year, really it calm my mind.

but then, i decided to activated my account again, starting to post my pictures again--

-- and everything, then i got so many compliments. really. i was so happy and sometimes it make me addicted. posted myself, got many likes, got many compliments that i like and repeat. seems good and positive, right? but it isn't.

sampai akhirnya aku merasa kecanduan dgn hal seperti itu, not even posting on feed, but also on instastory. aku ngerasa ga pede kalau aku posting sesuatu tapi ga ada yg komentar lol. i know it's not only me.

kayak gambar komentar di atas, terkadang sosial media yg kita punya kita jadikan alat untuk mendapat pengakuan dari orang lain, but i'm not that desperate tho :< cuma, sekarang jadi sadar ada beberapa hal gak sehat yg didapatkan karena terlalu aktif di sosmed seperti instagram.

emang, bukan sosial media-nya yg salah, tapi orang yg menggunakannya. aku rasa aku harus mengubah pola pikirku lagi (yg tentunya sama dengan kebanyakan pengguna masa kini, again i'm not the only one lol) dan gak berekspetasi apapun saat ngeposting sesuatu.

padahal, sekalipun aku mainan ig lagi after i deactivated it for a quite long time, sudah memilah banget siapa yg boleh ngefollow aku dan yg aku follow (karena aku orang yg get annoyed bgt kalau dikepoin), tetep aja dgn pikiranku--

yg gampang bgt terdistrak oleh sesuatu / orang lain, i better rest from it again. i better not knowing anything as long as it didn't distrub my knowledge, education, career, even my relation with everyone. i think it'll be okay.

well, i just want to get rid of some negative things that might cross my mind and heart :> also, anyone can watch a video about this thread, one of my favorite youtuber, i adore her sm!