It’s 4:40 in the morning. I can’t sleep due to stress. I worked seriously 26 days in a row 15 hour days.
I’m having anticipatory anxiety.
About the channel being deleted, under performing, or forgetting to do something important in my personal life.
I’m scared for Americans also.

This isolation isn’t good for us, but it makes me afraid even more because again we don’t know how safe we are.
This is all very hard for me to put into words and I feel like I’m holding back tears.
It’s tough to say this because I need to be strong for all of you and those

Around me in my personal life. This is literally the pinnacle I feel. And I want to be there. 24hrs a day but I physically can’t. It’s causing me to have thin skin, im constantly missing my son. I’m worried about my parents and grandparents, and OUR @realDonaldTrump.

It’s hard for me on here because I have to walk such a thin line between being too open and not being too closed off.
Friends I feel like I can’t keep up, and need some love. Seriously.
We are in our houses and apartments not because of a virus.
But because of something far

More deadly. A significant FF. We are truly up against people who kill and eat us. Pure evil. They will do ANYTHING to not lose. If it means killing all of us in the process.
I’m not afraid to die.
But I do not want to suffer though from some sick FF they pull off. The gloves

Are off, they are panicking, they are cornered.
I feel their fear. I just want us all to be safe.
I know we win. I know the world changes for the betterment of mankind. I just want to get through the storm, not too damaged. I Feel like I’ve already taken the brunt just getting

To this point.
This job isn’t easy.
I didn’t ask for it.
It just happened.
I want to be tough enough for it. Sometimes I question if I can.
I don’t want to fail you.
God knows I love each and everyone of you.
We are all one.
Gods children.
Pray.
God Wins.
-Thomas