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My personal thread of being a better version of me. A proud and confident me.
From 2014-2017 i was so insecure with myself. I knew that I was that fat ugly kid sitting among pretty friends. I didn& #39;t have much confidence and you would rarely see me wearing anything colored. I was always in black and maroon. I felt that even if I tried, i wouldn& #39;t look good.
Pictures before shows how often i dressed up in full black. Then, after graduating (17-18). Some shits happened to me. I was eager to change myself. I didn& #39;t want to hate myself, i wanted to feel good about myself. I always tried for others but this time i wanted to be different.
That& #39;s when i started to take myself out more. End of 2017 was my first spoken words poetry show i did at rantaiart. And then it was redkarya. after a few i sort of stopped 
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I was dedicate to change so i told my sister, I wanted to buy something colored. No more black. This was my first pink shirt after. Not only did i not choose black, i took pink. My mind set before was that I& #39;m not worthy of being feminine. But hey, baby steps.
I rarely got out so I suddenly found myself back to wearing black. Just a little better la. So you know what i did after this? I threw out all my black shirts amd told my mom i want to change my wardrobe. My mom was like okay cause she been nagging how i was always in black.
I wanted to rebrand myself, a new wawa. When we went out i went to Brand Outlet (now my fav sbb its quite cheap lmao) know this thou, i always thought the outfits at these stores as expensive. I was afraid to enter, but i did. My mom and sis helped me look for new clothes.
So we bought me pink, whites etc. My mom started giving away some of he clothes to me. Initially, i wasn& #39;t comfortable. I was insecure, like I said. I didn& #39;t think i was worthy of being feminine. When I went out, i gave excuses why i was wearing it. Like oh, x cukup baju etc.
One thing I can say is that, you can always make a better version of yourself. You should always do what makes you happy. My wardrobe change was for me to belive in myself. I& #39;m proud of myself, Im proud with what i do. I got good grades, experience etc. I feel good abt myself :)
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Also this thread is for me to remind me on myself agaga.
Also this thread is for me to remind me on myself agaga.
