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My Mom has pancreatic cancer.
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That first sentence is honestly so hard to write, even now, almost a year later, it’s hard to accept.
Before going on, I know we’re all busy but if you can throw prayers up for my mom, that alone would be amazing and the point of this...
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That first sentence is honestly so hard to write, even now, almost a year later, it’s hard to accept.
Before going on, I know we’re all busy but if you can throw prayers up for my mom, that alone would be amazing and the point of this...
Cancer is one of those things that you can’t really grasp until it truly hits home. It’s the same with divorce or losing a child or any other devastating event. Now I’ve experienced all 3, but to see someone you love wither and thrive at the same time is beyond what I imagined..
I didn’t want to have to write publicly about this. I can count on one hand how many of my friends even know about it, but I also thought my mom would be done with this by now. We were getting close to the other side of this thing but we found out today it’s moved into her lung..
My mom in an incredible woman and I mean that sincerely. Anyone who knows her can testify that she’d give you the shirt off her back in a storm and displays the spirit Christ like no one I’ve ever known. And consistently.
She’s also a fighter. She’s strong and has been to hell..
She’s also a fighter. She’s strong and has been to hell..
And back, which gives you the appreciation for the now. It also gives you the perspective to add love into the mix of everything and that’s what our family has done thru this. We’ve held together thru love and hope and faith
I remember getting the call. It was totally unexpected.
I remember getting the call. It was totally unexpected.
Long story short, she went in for an endoscopy because she suddenly had jaundice, as well as some other abnormalities but I still didn’t think cancer. Like not at all. When my dad told me, he broke down (he doesn’t break down) and said “Josh, I’m scared”. My stomach dropped...
and I collapsed to my knees. It felt like a train hit my heart but I held it in as much as I could. “We’re gonna get thru this” I told him. He said he was going to call my brother. I hung up and wept.
The unknown is scary. We like knowing the plan/journey we’re embarking on...
The unknown is scary. We like knowing the plan/journey we’re embarking on...
This was new territory.
Many tests later. A very extensive surgery, two weeks hospital recovery, at home care, injections and flushing of IV (by me), 6 months of chemo, 5 weeks of radiation daily, and here we are today. Almost at the finish line. PET scan showed us otherwise..
Many tests later. A very extensive surgery, two weeks hospital recovery, at home care, injections and flushing of IV (by me), 6 months of chemo, 5 weeks of radiation daily, and here we are today. Almost at the finish line. PET scan showed us otherwise..
So where do you go from here? Also add the fact that we’re in lockdown and can’t give your mom a hug. It sucks. It feels like you’re back to square one but worse.
I remember telling my mom all thru this that the *stage* or the type of *cancer* DOES NOT DEFINE YOU...You’re bigger
I remember telling my mom all thru this that the *stage* or the type of *cancer* DOES NOT DEFINE YOU...You’re bigger
DONT ALLOW THIS CANCER BULLSHIT TO TAKE OVER YOUR IDENTITY! I’d say that’s the most difficult part. You all see it. U all experience it. And it’s there daily...and now it’s extended. Here’s the but...WE GO ON! We band together and do everything we can to fight it. We get closer..
We press even further into THE NOW! We learn and grow from this and count every moment as sacred. We love and appreciate what we have, knowing EVERYTHING here is temporal. We accept the unknowns are coming for us all and that we’ll either get thru or go thru or transfer thru...
...to the other side. Whatever that other side is, well it’s unknown. And that’s okay. Love is unknown until you have it. So is pure joy and pure light. But they’re all higher forms of consciousness and way beyond us.
Energy can neither be created or destroyed. How fascinating!
Energy can neither be created or destroyed. How fascinating!
The spirit of someone is something that not even that person can fully grasp or understand. My mom’s spirit lives on regardless of any outcome. I just want to keep her physical presence here as long as possible because it still feels needed! And it’s still here! We all want that
for our loved ones.
I could rant on and on about the process of cancer treatment and go into the craziness of it all but that’s not what really matters. Not at all. It is what it is and all I can do is lift up others that are going thru it. I’m sorry!
Thanks for listening.
I could rant on and on about the process of cancer treatment and go into the craziness of it all but that’s not what really matters. Not at all. It is what it is and all I can do is lift up others that are going thru it. I’m sorry!
Thanks for listening.
Please pray for our family and especially my mom, @DaleSonojon
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Prayer is a tricky thing. I still don’t understand because obviously this isn’t what we were praying for, but I’m going to keep praying anyway. Keep hoping. Keep encouraging. Regardless of the outcome. God Bless
Sorry. Last one. This is my mom and I in DC last year, which was a trip that was personally kind of nuts and she went with me. Her spirit is amazing.
All will be well. Love you mom!
All will be well. Love you mom!
