listen i know you aren& #39;t gonna read this but im sorry about how bad i am with words and im sorry i literally can& #39;t communicate correctly with people. and i& #39;m sorry if i made it seem like i didn& #39;t give two shits when i did. it is so fucking hard for me to use my words and that-

was my problem in my last relationship. i get anxiety when i try and speak my mind. i hate blaming my fuck ups on my mental issues but its the truth. i wanna do better, i really do.

but you keep saying about how i don& #39;t care but i thought i was showing that i cared? i really did, i thought i was doing the right thing by apologizing but i guess i wasn& #39;t. but you aren& #39;t telling me what im NOT doing. you& #39;re only telling me about how much i dont care.-

im sorry i can& #39;t figure these things out by myself im a fucking idiot. you don& #39;t have to, but please, tell me what im doing wrong because i thought i was doing the right thing. im rambling at this point but we need to communicate. in a perfect world we would make up and no hard-

feelings would be shared, but i know thats not gonna happen. idk if this thread makes any sense bc my mind is scrambled eggs right now but yeah.