so like i'm writing the gregor hcs and listening to playlist and jesus FUCK why is like 90% of this playlist kiran songs. i think this is so fucked up

like specifically i'm listening to bloodflow and can we like? talk ab this? gregor subconsciously isolating himself bc he feels like all he's good at is killing? bc he feels like all he has for company now are the demons of his trauma now that he's murdered his old self?

and if u think i'm done talking i really am not. high price = sacrifice of not only ares but everyone who died in the war but also this is very specifically ab how the humans Used him as a weapon with no consideration for the fact that he was a CHILD they SACRIFICED his youth

and yes i have more to say don't i always. Tied by your body to a crystal jar => crystal jar = the stone knight that he emulated specifically in that he swore off his emotions and YES, doomed himself not to feel it forever. and he will push past this and let light and love in

but after losing so many loved ones in that war i DO think he will turn to emotional repression so tht he is not vulnerable and he WILL be lonely. and the symbolic nature of him regarding himself as a monster, something strange and wrong and broken, and Demonic is obvious i think

sorry for always being like this. Will i do this for every song on that playlist? WHO KNOWS