ive wondered whether or not to say this on main cos it's ultimately a sensitive and personal topic and the fandom atmosphere has been Dicey the past few weeks which doesn't help. but transparency is very important to me and so ive decided to say it after all.

before i start, if you are reading this, i would like to request that you dont jump to accuse me of being an anti please. i know the subject matter is very sensitive but imo it's also very personal so i ask that you simply respect my feelings on the topic.

ever since that live happened, i have been finding it increasingly hard to continue supporting wj like i had been until now. he means a lot to me please believe this. i hurt just as much as everyone else on the day of his departure and it has been so wonderful seeing him again

however, after what chn said, i personally cannot look at him the same way. i know we don't know the details of what went down and i do not support any rumors or guesses at what exactly happened either. in the end, it is none of our business.

i will say, however, that i do not think they parted on the best terms. i also think wj messed up and that ended up hurting s*z to a great extent. and so i have found it very hard to keep supporting him and have decided to be a so-called "ot8" stan.

i do not pretend to stand on any moral high ground. i do not think myself as a truer or better stay. i never wanted things to turn out this way. the wj i am talking abt now is the same wj i cheered for and cried for all this time and feeling like this genuinely saddens me.

but after thinking over it for a long time, ive realised that this is where i stand now and there is nothing i can do to change it.

if you do not feel or think the way i do, good. all power to you. im not gonna ask u to sb me if you stan him or smth, like i said, i Do Not hate the boy. if this thread has hurt you or made you uncomfortable in any matter tho, you are free to sb me, i wont take it personally.

i know it may seem like i am taking all of this way too seriously "it's just kpop" blah blah blah but. s*z means a lot to me and nothing or noone can change the fact that he was once a part of them. he will always mean something to me.

i am just hurt and tired. maybe even a bit bitter. and i needed to get this off my chest because if anyone following me believes that not-supporting wj makes me an anti, i thought it'd be better to rip the bandage off sooner rather than later.