I sometimes I think I go overly logical about stuff, like if, suddenly a grave case of verbose attacks me, and that’s worries me because it makes me realize that my family might be right about being as artificial as a robot which makes me sad,lose motivation and self-worth.

Seriously this makes me feel more anxious rather of then the normal 24h anxious.
It makes me think that something is wrong with me.

Like that makes me think that my only propose was to serve and never be independent and that makes me feel awful, because I have loads of hopes and life achievements that I want to achieve and I don’t wanna be incapable of performing so do to the lack of self thought...

...that was originated on that terrible military school that ruined my personality, my life and my mind, since I put my feet on it I discovered how cruel the world can be and lost all my innocence, and that is a awful feeling since I miss my innocence.

The consequences of that lead my way of storytelling to change and my humor too...I’m kinda scared

Sorry about this thread, my fear of lacking of humanity is increassing and everyday im becoming more and more paranoid about it, it's hard to ignore.