Just when I think you're back in my life you leave almost immediately.

It hurts more and more everytime, it continuously happens yet I fall for it. I convince myself "no you'll stay this time, things will be different". I'm always wrong.

I'm hurting.

Do you know the feeling.. that one specific feeling where your heart snaps in two?

It's just a constant ache that doesn't leave you for hours on end. Just the smallest reminder will easily bring it back too once it does leave.

Have you ever had that before?

I'd do absolutely anything to make it go away.

I'd do even more to prevent the ones I love from ever feeling this same pain.

I very rarely let people into my life, I never truly connect with most people.

But whenever I do it always ends in me feeling this exact same way.

Don't take people's feelings for granted, once they Invest time, emotion, their life into you.

The things you say that seem so little to you, may tear apart their whole world.

This is why I don't typically connect with people, to avoid anything like this.

Recently I've made connections with people and honestly part of me regrets it.

I've grown to learn that people like me belong in isolation, relationships of any kind just don't last.

I wasn't built to socialise and have nice people around me.

It's just not meant to be.

I belong in isolation.

I've met some wonderful people recently, I appreciate them more than they'll ever understand and it's nothing against them.

They're good people that deserve alot of love and respect which is something that I can't give.

I wish I could go back to not feeling anything towards anybody, life is much simpler without emotion.

You have no worries, no doubts you just have to exist.

It's blissful almost.