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hi it’s molly! this is going to be a massively long thread but if you’d pls read it all it would mean a lot to me :] i don’t really know how to kind of go about this or word it or anything bc it’s quite a difficult (?) thing and very different to what i’d usually b tweeting +
about i guess but basically i wanted to come out? idk it’s very like weird i guess i don’t really know and it’s weird for me since i’ve come out before? but this time it feels very different and odd. it might seem weird that i’m talking about this since i am only a stan acc nd +
i know that this literally isn’t going to impact anyone but myself so probably seems stupid or just unnecessary but at the moment this is the place where i feel most comfortable to talk about these things bc i know (or i hope) that you’ll all accept me i guess.
prior warning: i will be talking about sexuality a lot (obviously haha) throughput this thread and also internalised lesbophobia and comphet, ill explain n all that but. yeah.
so basically: i’m a lesbian. i like came to this realisation over what i’m going to say was a fairly sizeable amount of time, but i feel like the moment the first “what if i’m not bi” thought popped into my head i kind of knew? oh also if there are any typos i’m sorry iM +
crying right now haha so i’m trying my best!!!!! it’s not bc i’m sad or anything it’s just bc it’s A Lot. yeah so anyway uh basically it took me a while to realise i wasn’t just bi because i kind of always assumed that i was very very much into boys. like a lot. and it was +
only after having a lot of conversations with friends and reading up about comphet that i came to the conclusion that i’m just not? mm. so . comphet means compulsory heterosexuality, and it’s the idea that “heterosexuality is assumed and enforced by a patriarchal and +
heteronormative society”, so for example the vast vast vast majority of media that we consume mainly depicts heterosexual relations, alongside the fact that generally people tend to assume that others r straight. so evidently, this is a problem anyway. but for me it took me
ages to realise it? i’m not gonna go into detail or ramble because i understand that it’s boring, plus it’s completely unnecessary anyway, but basically i was always Certain that i liked boys bc ? everyone around me did? thinking back on everything i’ve experienced around +
crushes and that sort of thing (to be fair, not a lot), i always got crushes on boys that were 1) never going to like me back or 2) were famous. and, adding to this, i think that i only found boys attractive because that’s kind of what i was taught? like taking a step back +
recently in order to gauge how i’m feeling and whether i’m actually attracted to boys, it occurred to me that i would never want to pursue a relationship or anything sexual with any boy. ever. which was a hard thing to come to terms with, as i’m someone who has always said that +
she likes boys. it’s been weird. and it is still very weird. i’m so sorry if i’m explaining this badly, i’m not the spokesperson for people who’ve experienced comphet obviously, and i’m not very good at talking about it but if u want to know more aboyt it there are so many +
resources available. god knows i’ve exhausted all of them. so. i think i’m basically done, i’ve had this thread in my drafts for a while, even before i was sure (because i think i was sure, deep down) but yeah. i’m a lesbian. aaaaaa yeah ok
i think part of the reason it’s been so difficult as well is that first of all it’s a massive like life change for me? in that everything i thought was true about myself has like turned out to be false when looking at my past experiences and that sort of thing.
and secondly, i’ve been doubting myself so much? obviously everyone’s journey to finding themselves will be different, but in my eyes mine was so Bumpy and odd that i was invalidating myself constantly and just telling myself there’s no way i could be a lesbian bc i’ve had +
crushes on boys! but the whole point is that i have just been confusing my feelings for boys as crushes when they really haven’t been.
it’s all very awkward and iffy and i was trying very hard not to think about it in detail for a while because it’s scary but
it’s all very awkward and iffy and i was trying very hard not to think about it in detail for a while because it’s scary but
i’m glad that i did? i think. the main problem for me coming to terms with it (i still haven’t completely but that’s a whole different conversation ) is that i didn’t immediately know. i always assumed that i was somewhat attracted to boys, so when i was thinking maybe i’m +
a lesbian, the whole thought process for me was like Well U Can’t Be, Bc Youve Been Attracted To Boys In The Past ,. anyway i’m on the road to sorting that out in my brain, we’re not there yet but i’m getting closer i think
i hope u all can support me? idk that sounds kind of cringe and needy but i haven’t told anyone i know irl apart from my sister, so if you know me irl (of which some of u do!!! so please read this and listen to me pls pls) pls don’t tell anyone? i don’t want to kind of +
spread it. when i came out as bi at secondary school it wasn’t a super great experience because people weren’t able to keep secrets and the same people didn’t like that i wasn’t straight so. yeah
also if you aren’t comfortable with me being a lesbian please block me. please i don’t want to see your profile if you’re going to be such a horrible person and i’m sorry if i sound horrid it’s just that, understandably i hope, i’m feeling a little bit vulnerable and +
still slightly confused at the moment so. n just one more thing! i find that labels are helpful to me and make me feel comfortable, im pretty sure that i’m a lesbian but obviously sexuality is fluid nd all that sort of thing. i’m still finding myself, but this is where i’m at now
yeah that’s it :] i know that i worded it very badly and it will have been difficult to follow but. 
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