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leaving the story of my life in this thread:
I was born to a mother who thought boys are more important than girls,where boys get everything and girls don’t.Where girls dont get to say their opinion.where girls can be in an international school but should never talk to boys while boys can do whatever they want...
as I grew up in this bad childhood,my loving father never knew how my mother treated me..I never told him because I was often too scared to do so.I was mentally weak.
I soon became 13,in december 2016 my mother found out about my father’s secret marriage which made her go NUTS.She kept talking shit about him and telling me sexual shit about him,i was 13 at that time so most of the things she said didn’t make sense but now it does...
I also started to like a boy,he was my first serious relationship.We dated for couple of months but trust me when i tell u i loved him with all my heart then i really did. he left me for another girl,maryam is her name. im not afraid to share names nor any info anymore
ill never be scared of anything anymore.
because I realised that if ive been hiding all this shit inside me people need to know it just in case someone would feel better about their life after reading mine.
anyways,i kept holding on him until i lost myself,i lost being me as well.he kept dating maryam for 2 years and i never gave up on him,I tried contacting him but he blocked me everywhere.I tried “replacing” him as my friends told me but I couldn’t.never worked the way i wanted
years went by and in 2018 he contacted me,we started talking again and things were going well,until for some reason he decided to leave me once more and blocked me everywhere again.for what?i don’t understand!
later on as months went by he contacted me again and this time i was dead serious to leave him! I’ve made up my mind that next time ill leave him the way he left me. so,i blocked him this time but left him on few social media apps just incase he wanted to know how i was doing :)
its been 3 months now since ive blocked him on whatsapp,I even restricted his messages on instagram and i never felt proud of myself
he left marks in my life that would never go away.he will probably see this and you know what?ill never forgive you nor forgive myself for loving you.I wasted nearly 4 years of my life loving a boy,for what?to never get treated like i deserve? nah thanks mate.
going back to my family issues;today is the 9th of april 2020 and im proudly saying that my mom realised her mistakes few months ago and we’re working on our relationship together with my psychiatrist cuz yeah did i forget to mention?im mentally ill
I have been diagnosed with bipolar || disorder,my disorder taught me that being extremely happy is not okay. u may wonder how but thats how it is..
now as im 17;things got better. im not afraid to share my story and i hope that if u need help or have issues text me and ill surely help
im going to pause this thread until here,temporarily only and ill keep adding more stuff as i remember.stay strong yall.
and yeah I didn’t post this for attention,im posting my story so people can feel better about their life.
oh and now im living with my stepmom and my dad happily and I have the cutest baby brother ever,I love him so much
