As someone who enjoys the company of different people every now and then, this ECQ makes me restless and anxious with my thoughts of loneliness. It makes me wonder how terrible I am at keeping up with peers and if I'm even worth their time

I try to remedy this by focusing on myself with doing things that I like and want to feel accomplished at doing: playing games, working out, reading, but no, di ko maexpress sarili ko easily as before. Di na ako comfortable to talk to people right now because I don't even know-

if I'm well appreciated enough to merit conversation. I wanted to rant about a lot of things, yung situation with the nat'l gov't, this CoViD situation also, my situation with coping up with basically doing nothing of value, pero I got noone to rant to, not like before

I've become reserved, inconsistent with my wants and needs in socializing, basically anxious to the point of not finding the point of expressing myself to people. I try naman to reach out but I don't feel relieved of this feeling of worthlessness, that I'm just a tiny speck-

and nothing of importance to people. Maybe this thread is gonna put it to the test, but I'm trying to cope with it, it's just sad that I feel of coping up with this alone. Ano nga ba talaga ako sainyo?