tw: passive suicidal ideation
I keep thinking about anna borges’s piece on chronic, passive suicidal ideation, how coming to terms with my own chronic, passive suicidal ideation actually lifts a weight off my shoulders.
I keep thinking about anna borges’s piece on chronic, passive suicidal ideation, how coming to terms with my own chronic, passive suicidal ideation actually lifts a weight off my shoulders.
recognizing and identifying how I feel about myself has always been my biggest flaw.
this kind of thinking isn’t good, but it doesn’t make me bad or abnormal (at least in non-psych terms). it’s just part of my depression that I just have to reconcile with.
this kind of thinking isn’t good, but it doesn’t make me bad or abnormal (at least in non-psych terms). it’s just part of my depression that I just have to reconcile with.
tw: depression
I’ve been in and out of depressive episodes for the past...eight years. then, when I became a caregiver, the episodes lasted longer. I honestly don’t think the depressive episode that started in january 2019 ever ended.
I’ve been in and out of depressive episodes for the past...eight years. then, when I became a caregiver, the episodes lasted longer. I honestly don’t think the depressive episode that started in january 2019 ever ended.
sometimes it gets easier to breathe. sometimes I can come up for air for days or even weeks at a time.
but then I get dragged down again. and again. and again.
but then I get dragged down again. and again. and again.
anyway, that’s it. I’m feeling a lot better after writing this.
I probably won’t delete this thread until I document it in a notebook bc I want to remember. depression has taken so much of my memory that I’ll grasp for anything. (and yeah that’s why I tweet so fucking much)
I probably won’t delete this thread until I document it in a notebook bc I want to remember. depression has taken so much of my memory that I’ll grasp for anything. (and yeah that’s why I tweet so fucking much)