Years ago i wouldn’t have felt like this. But i think Corona might be the end of my nursing career. After a 1 day workshop in ITU care which laughingly replaces 18 months of postgraduate training, i’m expected to go to Critical Care, having never seen a ventilator in my life.

I don’t want to go. I’ve got a husband and two kids who need me. Healthcare staff are dying. When i got off that bus last night and saw my kid waiting at the window for me waving it broke my heart. How can i put myself at risk?

If this makes me a coward, so be it. If i refuse to go I will lose my job I know, and I love it and am good at it. But i’m not a Critical Care nurse and never have been and have never wanted to be. Sorry folks.

3 nurses have got corona at one hospital after having to use bin bags as PPE and the Trust statement says this is “unfortunate”. They do not care, we are cannon fodder. My mum died when i was 12 I am not going to willingly risk that for my girls.