It takes personal experience to understand the difference btw being depressed & having depression. Today was easily one of my worst depressive epsiodes of the quarantine. It's an intoxicating take over of your whole body and soul. It's steals the color from your life. Exhausting.

Today was one of the most beautiful days of the year, I went for a walk and couldn't take any of it in. The depression can get so consuming that it brings me to tears. Deeply overwhelming.

The thing is, I know how fortunate and blessed I am, but when the depression truly takes over, it doesn’t matter how grateful you feel, depression will be the only thing you see.

The key is to limit the length of the episodes by developing some skills to ease off the tension. My go to this quarantine has been putting my headphones on and pretending I'm at a rave dancing to dubstep and trap music. Gotta find what works for you.

I know I just dumped a bunch of personal stuff online like that, but I've never been one to be shy. Being vulnerable doesn't make you weak. It doesn't make you less of "a man". If you disagree, I will arm wrestle you while chugging a beer & then cry with you after.