I gotta confess: I’ve been pissed off lately.

I’m feeling powerless in my personal circumstances and the world is just reinforcing that worse and worse with each passing day.

It’s been bad energy and I don’t want to bring it anywhere... (Thread)

I don’t want to bring it to my friends, to my job, to my stream, to my art, anywhere.

And so I’m just kinda left stuck with it. I’ve only ever let myself bury it until it erupts and buries me.

I can’t honestly say I’m “hanging in there” anymore. Weeks go by like a fever dream and I’m lost.

I feel gutless and aimless.

I fantasize about martyring myself at a political demonstration because I don’t see any other way my life could have an impact.

My snap reactions to minor inconveniences are explosive. I’m one set of misplaced car keys away from a temper tantrum.

Every moment to take a breath and think about something positive is enough time for all of this anxiety and rage and self-doubt to pour in.

I stop before I even start. It makes me smile because I can at least guarantee my success at self-sabotage.

I don’t have some big point I’m working up to. I don’t have a vision of what I wanted to get out of posting this thread. I might just delete all of it and go for a walk.

I’m gonna just do that because I’m already having a meltdown and it’s helping nothing and no-one.

Thanks for sticking this out and sorry if I’m just making a bad brain day worse.

Take care of yourselves and be safe.