I like my body. I really do.
But I've been insecure about this one thing for my entire life now and I'm sick of it but I can't seem to stop caring about it.
It's my hight. I'm tall.
Not abnormally tall, but taller than let's say 80% of people I know. And I hate it.

There's something about it that always feels so awkward. In an group, I stick out. When dancing everything looks not really energetic on those long limbs. When riding, I need a very tall or just far horse so that my legs aren't too long on it.

In dating, I look for someone taller than me so I can for once get this feeling of, quite literally, "look up to someone", someone who can protect me, hypothetically. Because for some reason tall women are just expected to be strong and independent and put together.

And these are great attributes to have but you're not always like that.
You can't be insecure about it too because "You could be a model!" or, sorry short people, short people come and get you for complaining about being tall.

I know, there are probs more short people getting bullied for their height but with being tall ... it's this underlying awkwardness. The back hunching to fit in more. The long limbs. The expectation to own it.

I want to own it but I don't know how. I'm getting along with my bery small boobs, with my small eyes, with my bent fingers.
But my height? It's a long way to go.

Good thing is I take half the time of other people walking to places bc I take such big steps oops