if you are someone who has suicidal ideation, isolation and uncertainty are major triggers

take a minute now & write a note to yr future disordered-thinking self. both give yourself a grounding & make yourself promise to reach out for help. write down the phone number next to it

no powerlifter finds it strong or admirable or badass to try to go for a personal record without a spotter
everyone has a limit
find someone and make a deal that if things get really bad you will call them for a mental spot & vice versa
if you dont have someone, its 800 273 8255

if you are a man, try Magnesium
it can have profound positive psychological consequences and it's $5.
just because you felt a certain way all your life does not in fact mean that has to be your normal, despite what your brain has convinced you