Let it be known that compartmentalization can be your greatest strength and your most toxic trait at the exact same time.

It’s a strength if you save things because your mind cannot process a flood of emotions in an instant so you shelf it for later when you can unpack it and explore the corners of what’s causing you pain.

It becomes a toxic trait when all you do is SHELF. NEVER UNPACKING.

What you become is a build up of all the negative emotions you’ve never dealt with.
It’ll show in how you treat people, how you talk, the energy you bring to things.

It’s ok to compartmentalize but you become toxic when you’re saving events for months and months.

It is not normal to save things for monthssss.

I shelf because I feel everything on a very deep level.
Due to this I am not able to handle certain emotions in the time they occur. It’s always too much.
That’s why I shelf it and come back hours later so I can process & let go.

I try very hard to not React to things. My emotions sit at a place of Response.

In situations that really hurt responses take time because to do it I have to already forgive.
I don’t want to have remnant hurt or do that thing where I remember things 2hours after I react.

I also want to always extend love in my speech that’s why for things that hurt I don’t react.
It’s very easy to be brutal in your speech when all you do is consistently react.
There’s a difference between reacting and responding; if you’ve taken a class of mine you know it.

Some things that can be processed immediately are things that don’t actually hurt me deeply.
For those I do not compartmentalize.

Remember that it is very easy to cross the line between strength and toxic trait.
If you never unpack, what you have my darling is a toxic trait.