Last nite my OH asked me how I was. I gave him the long answer. I said I was struggling. No time on my own, unable to go out whenever I wanted, feeling trapped in the house. Constantly cooking, washing, cleaning, telling off, tidying up after the kids. 1/

I said I never wanted to be a SAH mum but have been forced into it. Unable to escape physically, #whereonearthdoyoulive, my new Youtube series IS my refuge; where my brain is processing science for the good of all. This is my comfort zone where I realise my worth and value 2/

When he asked what I wanted for my birthday (in 4 wks), I said I want to be left alone in a room for the whole day and not be bothered by anyone needing anything from me. Or to go for a walk - ON MY OWN! This resulted in 3/

I understand that others are forced into isolation away from ppl they love, I know I am privileged and lucky for the ppl around me. I do love my family but with no solititude or time to myself which I WAS used to, I am finding it hard. That was my long answer. 4/

The short answer was I'm doing fine. 5/end

Actually, just now my 8yo walked in and showed me a rainbow she painted for our window and I just wanted to cry at her kindness & empathy. I just don't want her to keep asking me for snacks though!