what sucks the most about social distancing for me personally is that i started antidepressants like 2 weeks before NYC enacted curfew and my markers for whether they’re working were if i could get myself out of the house more often to see friends or join ahttps://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="🏳️‍🌈" title="Rainbow flag" aria-label="Emoji: Rainbow flag">book club or anything

& ofc i’m grateful to be home safe during yet another R*publican Negligence Plague ™ but this whole situation feels like the symptoms of my illness are being... rewarded? encouraged? & i’m scared that even once it’s over and it’s safe to go out again that. i won’t even want to.

“growing up as a late millennial i’ve always had internet friends and IRL friends, and as i vanished from the world, so did the distinction.” i wrote that a few months ago when i was Deep In It and i could not have predicted the new flavor it has in this context

BUT!! we have to keep trying lol. maybe my psychiatrist will bump up the dosage. maybe we’ll try a different medication. maybe i’ll hop into a 1 shot online DND campaign with strangers tmrw. maybe i will get over the warped notion that calling a friend is somehow “burdening” them

petition to swap “social distancing” with “distantly socializing” bc the action/verb should emphasize the positive aspect of this

okay tmrw i’m gonna wake up and make lists for what i can currently do during this time and what i’m going to take advantage of in the outside world once this is over so. get ready for more A1 tweets tomorrow folx! XD

i felt the need to tweet this out because i have the typical human desire of being known but i also just know that there is No Way i am alone in my loneliness so if any of you have suggestions (or future restaurant/DND website recs) slideeeee on over to my DMs. lets get creative.

one thing i know i’m gonna resurrect is making soup with my friends on friday nights because that is what my ancestors lived and died for. anyway. there’s a full moon out tonight. hope you took something positive from this thread. good night y’all https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="🍜" title="Steaming bowl" aria-label="Emoji: Steaming bowl">https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="💞" title="Revolving hearts" aria-label="Emoji: Revolving hearts">