I will not be made out to be the bad guy for doing something I explicitly said I was going to do in order to better my mental health, and I will not be made to be the bad guy for standing up against what looks like racism and what explicitly reads as erasing the horrors of the

past that need to be remembered.

I actively work every day to avoid hurting feelings because I know how I can be sometimes. I do my best to not act without intention. my action yesterday of purging my followers on my private account was an intentional action to protect myself.

I explicitly stated I was feeling like I was being purposefully ignored on my private account. I stated my belief that removing all followers would trick my brain - if there's no one to be ignored by, I am not being ignored. I made an intentional choice for MY mental health.

my actions today in calling out the smau that appeared to simultaneously erase an indigenous character and ignore major world catastrophes were intentional. I am Native, I am queer, I know people who lost family in the towers, I know people living with AIDS.

it goes against the core of my being to sit idly by while these things are disrespected. so, with intention, I spoke out. yes, my words were harsh. they come from a lifetime of being erased. but they were not untrue. they were not unkind. they were intentional.

I will not be made to be the bad guy in situations where I examined my actions and my words and acted with careful intention. I did not do anything out of malice, and if you felt there was malice inherent in my actions, I cannot help that.

I can, however, make the narrative clear, and that is what I am doing in this thread.

and now I'm done.