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Vent thread(TW: Self harm)
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People always tell me I’m strong when I’m not. It’s just an act, it’s one of my walls. I’m weak, I give in to my thoughts way too often, I give into others easily, I trust too easily. I’m weak. I’m no where near strong
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People always tell me I’m strong when I’m not. It’s just an act, it’s one of my walls. I’m weak, I give in to my thoughts way too often, I give into others easily, I trust too easily. I’m weak. I’m no where near strong
I’ve given into my urge to hurt five times now.
There’s so much I hate about myself. I’m annoying, clingy, loud mouthed, blunt, too chaotic, too curious, I ramble too much, I’m angry all the time. I don’t get how I have friends then again 99% of the time I’m doubting
There’s so much I hate about myself. I’m annoying, clingy, loud mouthed, blunt, too chaotic, too curious, I ramble too much, I’m angry all the time. I don’t get how I have friends then again 99% of the time I’m doubting
Those friendships.
I’m extremely aggressive and overprotective. I’ve gotten into countless fights and I lose my temper easily, I throw things, I hit things, I shout. I lose control of myself when I get angry. Why would anyone want to be around a loose cannon?
I’m extremely aggressive and overprotective. I’ve gotten into countless fights and I lose my temper easily, I throw things, I hit things, I shout. I lose control of myself when I get angry. Why would anyone want to be around a loose cannon?
I’m really tired all the time. I’m so stressed and overwhelmed and my parents don’t notice and when I tell them they barely listen. I’m barely sleeping, only times I do is when on call with friends but timezones fucking suck. I’m also now barely eating
I can barely look at myself in the mirror anymore without wanting to break it or breakdown. I bottle everything up, I’m scared to share since I was raised to just suck it up and deal with it. I also just don’t need to bother anyone with my problems.
I guess that’s why I turned to this. I just need to get things out because they’re starting to hurt me. My upbringing wasn’t too good. I am the younger sibling to my older sister who is disabled and can’t do things herself or speak so I had to mature and grow up quickly to help.
I basically take care of the house and lately I’ve had to take care of both the house and my sister. It’s taxing. My mom now has me on a strict schedule cause she says my normal way of getting through the day isn’t helping but now I have barely any breathing room.
My mother should understand, after all everything I suffer from she has and she’s also been through other things. But it seems she doesn’t. She never listens to me and acts like nothing is wrong and instead blames it on laziness. I’m just really tired of dealing with it.
Gods I have so much more bottled up but this thread is so long already. I need to figure how to calm down though cause I need to be asleep before 3am today but we’ll see how that goes.
