Thread by @TheJosherXD, Okay, so I just need to get this off my chest. For [...]

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Okay, so I just need to get this off my chest.

For a while now, and by a while I mean for fucking ever, I fell like I haven’t been true to myself. I feel like I’ve held myself back from a lot. Mostly, because I’ve been worried about what people might think. I’m sick of worrying

Ever since I was little, I felt like I didn’t belong in my own skin. There were time that I would lay in bed at night crying - wishing I was someone I wasn’t. I used to fantasize about waking up one morning as the gender I identified with. I used to WANT to be a girl.

It wasn’t until high school and I came out that I finally shook that off. I became a little more comfortable in my skin. And, as time went on, I was able to sort of come into my own. But, every now and then, I used to wish I could wear something or do something “feminine”.

For the longest time, dance was kind of my outlet. It was my way of expressing myself and just showing who I was, in a way.

But, it wasn’t until I watched Ru Paul that I had an epiphany. There they were. These girls. Doing the thing that I wished for so hard for a long time.

Seeing this was an eye opener for me. I thought, “I can do that...I want to do that”.

So, it won’t be anytime soon (with everything going on) but, I’m pretty sure I’m going to go down this road. I hope you all will follow along with me as I explore this.

God, I’ve never talked about any of this before. I’m super scared right now.

This has been deep, late night thoughts with Josher.

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