i know that no one... no one cares at all about what i say or what i like... not irl, not here, not anywhere... ahah....

it just makes me really sad all of a sudden every time i remember how i was left alone for the whole day on my latest birthday, and how people look at me weird when i talk about something im passionate about, and how theres literally Nothing making me note-worthy to anyone

why do i feel like this so often am i literally just not fit for this world. do i literally actually just not matter to anything or anyone on a deeper level

theres So many things that id like to say but theyd sound so self-centered...... i swear thats not my intention but...ah... nothing anyone ever does feels like Enough... nothing is ever enough and im pretty sure the fact that i feel like that is my fault

gosh WHO EVEN CARES THAT IM TALKING ABOUT THIS . LITERALLY WHO CARES ABOUT ME OR ANYTHING THAT I SAY.

im sorry if im exploding like this on anyones timeline... im really sorry. today is just a different day and its hard to cope with it because i literally just dont know how to do it in a healthy way.

i hope i dont make anyone uncomfy or something if they come across this thread on their tl. i know ive had other times where ive vented on here so... i mean why would it matter anymore if this has happened so many times right