Handy V Cancer
A thread.
This week marks 2 years since I was given the new that I’m dying.
Sir, you have stage 4 rectal cancer and it spread everywhere, you have about 2/3 weeks of liver function remaining and if we start chemo now, hopefully it works in slowing all down and you may have 18 months.
Wow, cop that hey!!
If it WORKS and SLOWS the cancer I might get 18 months
18 months with my wife
18 months with my then 7yr old daughter that worships the ground I walk on
18 months with my fast growing 5yr old son that is a carbon copy of me.
Get your head around that...
Well, I went back to my hotel in Melb and I cried!
I cried for 2/3hrs
Fuck I cried!!
I was filled with anger!
12 months of specialist cancellations, colonoscopy cancellations, if I had got in when I first realise I had an issue it would have been found, I would have had a chance
Instead, cancer happily went about its business fill my body with one thing in mind.
Taking me out.
Cancer doesn’t care how much I love my wife, nor does it care I have 2 beautiful kids or what my parents will go through watching their first born dying.
CANCER DOESNT GIVE A FUCK
But cancer hasn’t meet me!
I’m not a ‘crawl up into a corner’ type of guy.
I’m the ‘right, you think I’ll be gone within 18th months’
HERE, HOLD MY BEER
Imma prove some people wrong here, watch me, NO SERIOUSLY, WATCH ME!
I’m a stubborn prick, I don’t listen to what I’m told, I certainly ain’t gunna let a GUTLESS, FACELESS chance who I am in the eyes of my family and friends.
Live with cancer??
Nup..

Cancer, live with me!
Let’s just see what you’ve got
Right...!
What needs to be done?
What do I have to do?
What’s required?

Tell me to jump and i will ask you how fucking high?
Do you want a one handed, two handed, hell, I give you a 360 dunk at the end of it.
This was my starting point.
I’m young, I’m can get passed 18months.
Ahead lay some tough times.
Above the shoulders is the greatest challenge.
But my greatest asset was beside me, holding my hand, the ear to listen, the shoulder to cry on, the slap around my head when I need it.
My wife didn’t sign up for this when we stood at the Hamilton Island lagoon and said “I do”
But she’s tenacious, she’s stubborn, she’s resilient and my god is this woman strong!
She’s all I ever need and I wasn’t doing this alone.
The two years of treatment is all strawberry’s and rainbows I can tell you.
Chemo therapy hammers the body.
But I can’t complain, those older than me have it much worse with side effect than my early 40’s string bean body.
I have permanently numb feet and hands from nerve damage caused by one of the drugs.
Cancer takes a lot away from you.
For me, it took away basketball, the game I play and love. Not being able to work was the hardest adjustment for me.
But taking basketball from me hurt..
But I won’t let it win. So I coach!
I have cancer and I get down to that basketball stadium where everyone knows who I am and I coach kids.
I couch my kids, I’m the loudest coach in that stadium.
Constantly talking, encouraging, cheering!
I couch my daughters U/12’s, my nephews U/14’s and my sons U/8’s...
I love it!
The immense pride I have in teaching these kids some of the things you learn when you play 1500+ games.
The kids will never know what it is they do for me every week. But I do.
I keep pushing myself.
I get tired very easily but I continue to rise and go again and again.
Sitting in a chair for 6hrs of drugs every two weeks can be draining but I won’t let it push me down.
I walk into oncology and I’m the loudest in the room, I’m the one laughing with staff and other patients. Because that’s just me. I see the others that have given up, you can tell, eventually you don’t see them anymore! It’s had to watch. It’s bloody hard.
Eventually cancer will rise again and over come all the fight I have because, unfortunately, it’s the nature of the beast, it knows no other way.
I have a PET scan in 3hrs.
It’ll tell what the cancer is up to in the last 3 months.
As I sit here and type I currently have the least amount of cancer in me since diagnosis.
I only have a small bit active in my liver.
I have beaten the odds just to be here.
I am still terminal!
It will win eventually
But I feel like a winner over these 2yrs
I’ve gotten more time with my family, watched my kids grow, had more chances to impact their lives
I have the support of all my mates, my local community, people on twitter who are in my corner. Support is everywhere
I am not alone.
I continue to punch and everyone behind me provide the power.

We fight so hard not for ourselves
But for those around us that love us
When it’s all said and done, I will be a memory for everyone.
One of courage, humour, a smile nothing could remove.
My kids will hear from people they won’t know “you dad was amazing, he would be so proud of you”
I am proud
I will leave this world with a heart full of pride
Proud of my wife
Proud of Payton
Proud of Dallas
Proud of my circle of friends

But proud of how I went about it, how I carried myself, how I lived my life
I promise.
I will get to 3yrs with cancer and you’ll have to read another thread because I kinda like being around.
Life is still good and worth fighting for...

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