i'm a fucking egotist, and I really wish I wasn't. I hate being like this cause I always get the thought of just doing something to out do someone else and have the light on me, I never do it but I always have the THOUGHT of it and then I get tempted to do it

and another thing is I feel like when I write this that it's gonna appear as if i'm like "Oh woah is me, feel bad for me please!" when i'm not at all and NOONE who views my shit is gonna think that about me cause why would they have the reason to?

I also feel I vent too much for being someone who just wants to make people laugh, and just cause sadness instead oh fuck me
the last one of these vent tweets is the one i'm gonna go back to a lot because that one feels more genuine than these shitty ones

random thing to add: i'm awful at spelling and get self conscious about it when writing this stuff when I really shouldn't should I? oh good god it sucks thinking like this

I go on for too long don't I? like even now i'm making this thread go on for awhile, I should just stop here. Thanks for reading my sobby ass